Gratitude List 26/04/2018
Not for the first time in my life I woke up this morning in fear. A tense, anxious nausea. The difference this time was, I quickly realised I had nothing to fear. Absolutely nothing. No worries, no stresses, no problems. I don’t remember having a bad dream either. My belief is, I have lived the majority of my adult life with an abundance of self created fear and as a result it became a habit. So much so, I can suffer from fear that doesn’t exist, like I did this morning, or make mountains out of molehills when it comes to the small concerns I do have. Fear is not the only bad habit I have that occasionally rears it’s ugly head without reason. But thankfully I have applied myself to the recovery program, and fear along with other bad traits are becoming less habitual. I am grateful that the below destructive habits are progressively playing a smaller part in my life.
Dishonesty (hardest habit of all)
Gluttony (just as hard!)
Again, massive gratitude to the recovery program and my higher power. As a direct result, the voids left behind are slowly but surely being filled by good habits!
If I continue to pray and practice, this transition from bad to good will continue and continue to progress. I will never be perfect. I am human after all. I’m happy with that.