From Good To Bad… Progressively

Gratitude List 26/04/2018

Not for the first time in my life I woke up this morning in fear. A tense, anxious nausea. The difference this time was, I quickly realised I had nothing to fear. Absolutely nothing. No worries, no stresses, no problems. I don’t remember having a bad dream either. My belief is, I have lived the majority of my adult life with an abundance of self created fear and as a result it became a habit. So much so, I can suffer from fear that doesn’t exist, like I did this morning, or make mountains out of molehills when it comes to the small concerns I do have. Fear is not the only bad habit I have that occasionally rears it’s ugly head without reason. But thankfully I have applied myself to the recovery program, and fear along with other bad traits are becoming less habitual. I am grateful that the below destructive habits are progressively playing a smaller part in my life.

Fear

Resentment

Dishonesty (hardest habit of all)

Laziness

Gluttony (just as hard!)

Lust

Gambling

Intolerance

Irresponsibility

Again, massive gratitude to the recovery program and my higher power. As a direct result, the voids left behind are slowly but surely being filled by good habits!

Love

Tolerance

Honesty

Open-mindedness

Willingness

Industriousness

Togetherness

Responsibility

Calmness

Humility

Maturity

Gratefulness

Mindfulness

Trustfullness

Reliability (wow)

If I continue to pray and practice, this transition from bad to good will continue and continue to progress. I will never be perfect. I am human after all. I’m happy with that.