Don’t they know who I am?

Gratitude List 20/09/2018

Along with honesty and willingness, open-mindedness has been and continues to be absolutely vital for my recovery. In fact, I’m not sure I could have been honest or willing had I not been open-minded at the time. Would I have shared deep honesty had I not been open-minded to the concept that it would be good for me? Would I have been willing to believe in a God of my own understanding had I not been open-minded to the possibility of a power greater than myself?

Just a couple of years ago, open-mindedness was absolutely alien to me. To be open-minded I needed to accept that other people might know better. What? Nobody tells me what to do! Don’t they know who I am???

Without being open to new beliefs I wouldn’t have been able to progress to where I find my self today – a happy place.

Today I am grateful I was open-minded when it came to:

– being open and honest. I initially thought this was a suicidal act in terms of personal relationships. But I’ve received nothing but support, respect and serenity.

– change. I was so against the possibility of someone changing, believing we are who we are and there was nothing anyone could do about it. I now know (not believe) change is possible. I’ve seen it. I’ve felt it.

– the possibility I maybe wrong. I spent my whole life manipulating others to do what I do, say what I say, think what I think. When they didn’t I was frustrated. Now I am happy to learn from others and want the strengths they have.

– a power greater than myself. I was alone, suffering and rubbish at managing my life. Now I feel connected and empowered wherever I go and whatever situation I find myself.

– all beliefs and opinions. Once resented and ignored because I either didn’t agree or didn’t come up with it myself, I now listen to and read as much as I possibly can in the hope of another moment of inspiration and/or motivation.

I’m now open to spiritual experiences.

Grateful for the memory

La Pelosa, Sardinia, summer 2017