Mental blank spots

Gratitude List 21/10/2018

Mental blank spots. To me, that means there is nothing, absolutely nothing I can do about it. That’s why they’re called mental blank spots – I do not possess the ability to think rationally, no matter how much self knowledge and will power I have. I do not even know they’re happening until it’s too late. In hindsight I have much experience in these moments of powerlessness.

Thankfully, I have found a spiritual connection with a power greater than myself that does have that ability and the required power to guide me to rational thinking.

Today I am grateful for my spiritual connection.

Today I am grateful for how it was always there waiting for me to do my bit.

Today I am grateful for someone showing me how to do my bit.

Today I am grateful for how it will always be there for me as long as I want it.

Today I am grateful I want it.

Today I am grateful for the feeling of being connected. Hard to put into words but there’s a sense of extreme serenity, love and humility.

Today I am grateful that my efforts to pray and meditate keep me connected even when I don’t feel it.

Whose to say I haven’t experienced mental blank spots in the last couple of years, but because I am spiritually connected I have subconsciously had the power and ability to make the right decision?? I choose to believe I have been saved many times over. I can’t, God and I can.

Grateful for the memory

Eiffel Tower, Paris, 2016