Gratitude List 30/10/2018
Last night there was a lot of talk about honesty. Until last year I was rarely honest with myself or with others. It took me to learn how to be honest for me to realise how rare it was. I now practice being honest and I say practice, because it’s still not natural for me to be so. Although, it is slowly but surely becoming a habit.
Being honest with others causes less harm despite what fears my mind has concocted surrounding telling a truth. Being honest with myself is absolutely vital for my recovery. I cannot progress if I deny or ignore what’s really going on.
Holding a truth inside, sometimes deep inside, will eat away at me. It needs to be released. The rewards of being honest are spiritually, emotionally and physically good for me.
Today I am grateful for being shown how to be fearlessly honest. If it was down to me I would have just skimmed the top.
Today I am grateful for the magic of putting something down on paper. For me, it brings my thoughts to my own attention – an extra and vital step in being honest with myself.
Today I am grateful for all the revelations being honest with myself gives me. Each revelation is another tool in my toolbox ready to use in my daily life.
Today I am grateful for nightly and spot inventories that keep the self honesty levels up and the toolbox full.
Today I am grateful for the lack of harm I have caused others recently. Furthermore, the honesty is often met with appreciation.
Today I am grateful for the lack of inner turmoil of my stomach turning and the overworking washing machine in my head – all caused from the habit of lying and the fear of being truthful.
Today I am grateful for the humility I will gain as a result of being honest. For me, there’s nothing more humbling.
Today I am grateful for the vulnerability shown by others when being brutely honest. This inspires me and gives me the courage to do the same.
Grateful for the memory
London’S effort at Ice Hockey! 2017