Gratitude List 06/11/2018
For me, living in self is not an option. Not one I desire to use anyway. I’ve lived decades where I have had total control of my life and its not pretty reading. The lengths I have gone to to cause harm to myself still astounds me.
More astounding than that, is how my life has changed for the better. Since being guided through the recovery program, practicing it in my daily affairs and passing the same guidance to others, I have managed to let go of some of that control.
Today I am grateful for the daily suggestions I was given from day one in recovery. Suggestions that take me out of self, some without me even realising.
Today I am grateful that giving away control means I’m giving up the fears and resentments that dictated my life.
Today I am grateful for discovering humility. This was absolutely vital for me. It’s the polar opposite to my ego. Without humility I’d still be trying to shape people, places and things to my own desires. Without it I would not have become willing to believe in a greater power than myself.
Today I am grateful for my sponsor. There is no way, not a chance, not a hope, I would be in the same place I am today if I had decided how I should recover. I would have taken bits out and added bits of my own. This is a life saving solution that works and it shouldn’t be meddled with.
Today I am grateful for my greater power – my God. Having found the belief, I now had a power to hand my life over to. A power powerful enough to take the reigns. The belief was necessary, but I needed to take action, a leap of faith that my greater power could do a better job than I. He hasn’t let me down yet.
Grateful for the memory
This morning, London, UK