Not a struggle

Gratitude List 01/12/2018

I can’t deny that some gratitude lists are easier than others. Some days my gratitude just flows and some days are more of a struggle. Today is the latter.

What really helps me is asking myself why? What has taken away my serenity? What is pulling the wool over my usually grateful eyes? From that point on, I can always find a silver lining.

Today I am grateful that although my girlfriend has caused me harm, I know I had a part to play and with the recovery program I have some answers.

Today I am grateful that although my fight against my food compulsion is currently non-existent, my fight against other compulsions are strong.

Today I am grateful that although I have lost my patience today, I am aware of this defect and I was able to take a deep breath.

Today I am grateful that although money is tight, I have a roof over my head, food in the cupboard and enough money to pay the bills.

Today I am grateful that although I am missing the meetings, I have a program to work, fellows to call and a greater power to connect with.

Today I am grateful that although I haven’t connected with my greater power as much as I’d like, I know He is there waiting for me.

Awareness

Gratitude List 30/11/2018

Today, my list reflects on my gratitude for my awareness. My awareness has grown as my recovery has progressed.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of recovery, change and what I need to do.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of acceptance, courage and wisdom.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of the help, support and power available to me.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of the beauty that surrounds me.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of gratitude.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of strengths.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of how much my life was run by fear and resentment.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of defects like intolerance and inconsideration.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of how to deal with them.

Today I am grateful for my awareness of how I can be of use to people.

Its hard to imagine a life without the awareness of what I’ve mentioned above, but that’s what it was like for me. For decades I was void of it.