Up the downward escalator

Gratitude List 06/01/2019

Recovery, and life too, is like walking up a downward escalator. Well it is for me anyway. I’m not complaining, far from it, it’s not too difficult, not too tiresome and a couple of years ago I didn’t even know how to.

Today I am grateful for the tools I have acquired that keep me progressing upwards. Steadily and one day at a time. There is much to do but I am capable of doing what is asked – I just need to put in the action.

Today I am grateful I am not trying to run before I can walk. I haven’t forgotten how far down I have come from. This will be slow and in depth, I don’t care for short-cuts.

Today I am grateful I am aware that my emotional illness is the driving force behind the escalator’s downward direction. Its does not stop and never will. If I stop however, quite simply I’m going down with it.

Today I am grateful I have experienced that by doing the bare minimum I will not progress, and by taking my foot off the pedal completely, I will slowly but surely regress. Also, the longer I continue to do nothing, the escalator seems to speed up.

Today I am grateful I know there is no limit to progression. There is a limit to my regression, something, God willing I won’t experience. Some have.

Today I am grateful that my progression thus far has meant when I do stand still, I am higher up that escalator. As long as I recognise and admit my dip, I can act and soon progress to where I was…. and beyond.

Today I am grateful for unity and service. The togetherness, serenity, selflessness, spirit and humility that I get in return along with the will of my greater power are like two big hands pushing me up from below. Supporting me all the way and ready to catch me if I fall.

Today I am grateful I do not fear or dread the uphill task that lies ahead of me. I have no problem putting in the work it takes for me to progress. Like I said its not too difficult, in fact the further I progress the easier it has become. If recovery and life keeps giving back the way it has done, I am more than happy to walk up a downward escalator for the rest of my life.

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