Gratitude List 25/02/2019
l. We accept criticism gratefully, being honestly glad for an opportunity to improve?
Today I am grateful I am learning to accept criticism gratefully. This is not easy, because my default position was to react with arrogance, self-pity, anger and resentment. But I am getting better, I am learning how to deal with my emotions, characteristics and how to let go. Even when criticism does cause me harm, if I manage to bite my lip, I often see the lessons to be learned once the red mist clears.
2. We do not indulge in self-pity and have begun to feel the laws of compensation operating in all life?
Today I am grateful for a huge improvement with regards to self-pity. Sure, it still plays a part in my life but in contrast to what it used to, it’s a million times better. When it comes to ‘the laws of compensation’ (after Googling the meaning) I can safely say I have begun to feel it in my life – it’s very evident in my recovery.
3. We do not expect special consideration from anyone?
Today I am grateful for the progression in this. Early on in my recovery I craved recognition for my abstinence and my efforts. Prior to that I desired sympathy for the difficulties I created. The humility I have gained through the step work has made me realise I am not the arbiter of the universe. I am no more special than my neighbour, I am a being, just like the billions of others.
4. We control our temper?
Today I am grateful for my improved control over my temper. With regards to my girlfriend I feel it has come on tenfolds. I still lose my temper with my kids, but far less often and when I do, at least I have control in a sense of my awareness and desire to keep improving.