Gratitude List 27/04/2019
“Suppose we fall short of the chosen ideal and stumble? Does this mean we are going to get drunk? Some people tell us so. But this is only a half-truth. It depends on us and on our motives. If we are sorry for what we have done, and have the honest desire to let God take us to better things, we believe we will be forgiven and will have learned our lesson. If we are not sorry, and our conduct continues to harm others, we are quite sure to drink. We are not theorizing. These are facts out of our experience. “
Alcoholics Anonymous, PG. 70
Today I am grateful I have a better idea of what ‘the chosen ideal’ is. Without this knowledge I’d be in denial.
Today I am grateful I have the humility to honestly admit when I have fallen short.
Today I am grateful that personal experience has proven these falls do not automatically lead to a relapse and that a lot will depend on my response.
Today I am grateful I do ask God, as I understand Him, for forgiveness, praying only for knowledge of His will and the power to carry it out. I do this on a daily basis.
Today I am grateful that I believe God has forgiven me each and every time and will continue to do so as long as there’s an honest desire on my behalf.
Today I am grateful that I do take these falls as an opportunity to learn, improve myself and equip myself for the future.
Today I am grateful I am under no illusion that if I am not sorry and I continue a conduct that will harm others, including myself, then a relapse is inevitable.
Today I am grateful I don’t have theorize! I don’t want to decide what’s right and what’s wrong. I’m no good at it anyway. The facts are there in clear view if I wish to see them.
Today I am grateful for those who share their own falls. If I truly listen without judgement, I can learn from them – I don’t have to go through the same terrifying experiences to prove it.