Gratitude for Gratitude

As I’ve previously mentioned, I have decided to not post my daily gratitude list anymore. In doing so, I have to admit, that my gratitude lists have become more authentic.

It’s not that I ever listed something I was not grateful for, but what I wrote was influenced by the simple knowledge that I was posting it for others to read. What I realised, is that I began to write lists to be of service to others and carry a message of recovery. I also took into consideration how someone might react to certain things and would therefore be careful about what I wrote and how I wrote it.

Neither ‘being of service’ or ‘consideration for others’ are bad, in fact they are two things I thrive for on a daily basis. But despite my good intentions, they did have an effect on what I wrote and therefore my gratitude wasn’t always entirely authentic. I can continue to be of service to others and continue to use consideration, but in other ways.

I have also come to realise that ‘people pleasing’ had a huge part to play in this. If I didn’t suffer from people pleasing then my gratitude lists would have stayed true. They wouldn’t have been swayed in the way they were. Again, wanting to please people is not a bad thing, unless by doing so it effects my own recovery, and through tainting my gratitude lists, it had.

Today I am grateful that my gratitude contains gratitude and nothing else.

Gratitude for gratitude.

Author: gratitude4gratitude

A relative newbie to gratitude. Starting each day with a gratitude list sets me up for the day. This small effort starts a domino effect of positive action and subsequent serenity.

4 thoughts on “Gratitude for Gratitude”

  1. Hear hear on this… I am thinking about returning to private journalling since psychologically I need the offline purge. It was the same with prayer… in my journal I usually write my prayers and once I took that online with this blog, it felt somehow “commericalized” (even though I earn no money from it) and inauthentic…

    Happy you posted! Was thinking of your gratitudes while I hung things on the clothesline today. What I loved was your reliable consistency… very calming.

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    1. Thank you for sharing…. I always wondered whether any ego feeding was involved in my posts. I came to the conclusion that if there was, it was only a little. It was the other good intentions that took the authenticity away. Hope all is well

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      1. It’s the same for me… I didn’t post the prayers because of those same reasons… felt too personal… and I don’t post certain things online that I would write about in my journal, for not wanting to hurt anyone. It’s a fine line… Have a lovely eve

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