This morning I was greeted with that dreaded question…
“Can we have a chat later?”
This is never good news, is it?
Based on personal experience, no, it is not good news. What have I done wrong now? What faults are she going to bring up? What situations can I bring to the table to counter hers? These are just a few of the questions that would be spinning around my head in the meantime. That is if I allowed it to be delayed till ‘later’. Normally, I would insist that she said what she needed to say immediately. Why should I be made to wait and suffer?
Well today, I am grateful to have not reacted this way. How I’ve reacted goes to show how far recovery has taken me.
These are just a few of my thoughts…
– This is probably an opportunity for her to get things off her chest and share how she is feeling. Something I am blessed to do several times a week at meetings.
– This could be an opportunity for me to listen and learn from whatever she has to say. Another chance to progress.
– This could be an opportunity for me to practice strengths of character like tolerance, patience, consideration, love and humility.
– This could be another opportunity for me to make amends if I have caused any harm.
– This is an opportunity for me to use the ‘meantime’ to pray and meditate and prepare myself spiritually, rather than acting on impulse (self).
– This could be an opportunity for her to bear witness to my difficulties being removed and see God’s power shine through.
– This is another opportunity for me to accept the things I cannot change and have the courage to change the things I can.
– This is another opportunity for me to let go and live life on life’s terms.
There is nothing for me to fear. Furthermore, when reality plays out, there is rarely anything to fear in the first place.
In any case, wish me luck 😉