Gratitude List 19/03/2018
For too long had I not wanted to have a good sincere look at myself. Understandably so, I can’t say I’m proud of my past. It was far easier to forget, deny, surpress and blame others.
Just under a year ago I was encouraged to do an inventory. I was told to honestly and morally scrape the bottom of the barrel. I did. And although I was warned this could be an emotional task, I took each learning curve as a huge positive. I came to believe that my past is a place for reflection and not for residence. I was gathering some tools to help me deal with the roller-coaster that life is. As a good friend regularly suggests, I hopefully have another 40 years to be the best person I can possibly be.
More recently, I have been topping up this work by doing a mini inventory each night. By answering some simple questions, I gain substance to my prayers and focus for the following day. Today I am grateful for….
A guiding hand.
The courage I had to take the initial plunge.
Putting things down on paper by hand. There’s some magic in this.
The release. No better way of explaining it.
The serenity I get as a result.
The tools I am acquiring.
Things I could’ve done better. I can learn from them.
Gratitude List 18/03/2018
Today I am grateful for the things I choose to view as miracles. There may well be some science behind each and every one and some are definitely man made. Even these though have a certain awe, a certain wow factor, that to me seem miraculous. Some, for me, can’t be explained.
Miracle of life
Miracle of gravity
Miracle of love
Miracle of grief
Miracle of change
Miracle of recovery
Miracle of forgiveness
Miracle of suns, moons and stars
Miracle of the human body. In fact any species!
Miracle of electricity
Miracle of evolution
Miracle of engineering
Miracle of abstinence
Miracle of faith
Miracle of medicine
Gratitude List 17/03/2018
If I am open-minded and willing I can learn from the people around me. I’m not talking about learning from their mistakes, I’m talking about drawing strength from what they excel at. I used to look at people’s weaknesses with judgement and criticism. I still do sometimes. Over the last year I have tried to look for the positives, to see their inner beauty.
My girlfriend and her love, tolerance, understanding, support, commitment, dedication, work ethic, positivity, acceptance, generosity…
My son for his love, kindness, generosity, his good behaviour, innocence, calmness, courage, resilience, honesty…
My daughter and her love, sweetness, kindness, happiness, innocence, good behaviour, excitement…
This list could get very long indeed. I am very lucky to have a close relationship with my amazing family and have a great network of friends. Every person in my life possesses strengths I can draw upon, even the people I have spent most of my life resenting. How I choose to look at them is up to me.
Gratitude List 16/03/2018
Excuse the parody…
In contrast to Neo, I don’t remember meeting the mighty Morpheus. I also don’t remember choosing to take the blue pill instead of the red. Even though I have no memory, I must have, because at some point in my late teens I entered my dreamworld. Not the wonderland that Neo and Trinity enjoyed, jumping around with endless possibilities saving the world. But a world of extreme highs and extreme lows. Leaving behind a path of destruction wherever life took me. Thanks to God I found the red pill some twenty years later. From this point on, like the crew of the Nebuchadnezzar, I began to see the world as it truly is. Unlike the shock they got, I was met with a world of beauty, of change, of hope.
A long winded way of saying I no longer look at the world through tinted glasses. But with these new eyes I am truly grateful for…
The beauty of nature
The blueness of the day’s sky
The vastness of the night sky
The sun’s power, the moon’s too
The sound of birds
The sound of running water
The beauty within people
The bond of family
The warmth in touch
The joy of laughter
I did however see the true me as well and there was little beauty to be found. Thanks to God (again) I have taken this positively. It is, without a doubt an opportunity to change, to make amends, a true blessing to live two lifetimes in one.
Never read them… Maybe I should start… For today, this is my story!
Gratitude that I am learning not everything is a coincidence.
Gratitude List 15/03/2018
As I sat in my car this morning I was feeling a little fearful about the future, feeling a little resentful towards someone and as a result feeling a little low. The key word being ‘little’ because I soon asked myself “what am I worrying about?” I realised I have nothing to worry about compared to others less fortunate and compared to what I’ve had to worry about in the past. Not only have my fears and resentments lessened but other parts of my life have progressed in the right direction over the last year. Today I am grateful for my progression.
I am happier more often.
I am more tolerant of others.
I am less selfish.
I am more responsible with money.
I am more honest.
I am less angry.
I have more self-respect.
I am more present.
I waste less time.
I am more at peace.
I have more hope.
‘More’ or ‘less’ I am improving as a person. I am not perfect, I never will be. But I am progressing, and that I accept is all I can do.
At work this morning I was filling up the kettle and also a 5 litre bottle we use to save us walking to the kitchen so often (mad I know!) As the water was gushing out of the tap, gratitude suddenly struck me – the availability, the cleanliness, how plentiful it is, how I need it to stay alive! It is so easy for me to go on with my daily life with no thought of how lucky I am.
So, for as long as I remember, I will try to stop and appreciate…
The meals I have. I will try and enjoy each bite.
Each time I use water, whether it be to drink or wash.
The steps I’m taking.
The air I’m breathing.
The things I see, hear, smell, taste, feel.
Material things like my clothes, my phone, my TV, my home, my car.
My friends, family, fellows.