Gratitude List 01/02/2019: Insanity

Gratitude List 01/02/2019

I’ve been re-reading the Big Book. Despite the book being about alcoholism I have never had a problem relating the content to my own compulsions. I’ve mentioned it before, but there are certain passages that have proved to be vital moments in my life. It happened again last night. The following passage has always reminded me of the insanity of my thinking and the countless attempts to control my illness.

‘Here are some of the methods we have tried: Drinking beer only, limiting the number of drinks, never drinking alone, never drinking in the morning, drinking only at home, never having it in the house, never drinking during business hours, drinking only at parties, switching from scotch to brandy, drinking only natural wines, agreeing to resign if ever drunk on the job, taking a trip, not taking a trip, swearing off forever (with and without a solemn oath), taking more physical exercise, reading inspirational books, going to health farms and sanitariums, accepting voluntary commitment to asylums—we could increase the list ad infinitum.’

I can relate totally. Today I am grateful for this reminder.