Gratitude List 21/04/2019

Gratitude List 21/04/2019

Today I am grateful to have a place where I can connect with my mum. I can connect anywhere but this place is special.

Today I am grateful to have a relationship with my mum based on a spiritual connection.

Today I am grateful I have a spiritual life.

Today I am grateful this relationship is made of love and strength.

Today I am grateful that my mum is one of the greater powers that I draw guidance from.

Today I am grateful for my belief that my mum has forgiven me.

Today I’m grateful for all the strength of character that my mum possessed and how I am inspired by them.

Today I am grateful that when I close my eyes I can picture my mum’s kind and loving face.

Today I am grateful that I have a good relationship with my dad and that I strongly believe this is what my mum would want me with one.

Gratitude List 19/04/2019

Gratitude List 19/04/2019

Today I am grateful I woke up and got to see my children sleeping so peacefully. Love them so much.

Today I am grateful for lighting this candle, what it meant for me and the connection I felt….

Today I am grateful for the inspiring messages I get to read on a daily basis.

I’m also grateful I no longer resent these types of messages.

Today I am grateful for the food I have eaten. Many in the world aren’t so blessed.

Today I am grateful for this cheeky, inquisite fella…..

Today I am grateful for a powerful meeting. The experience, strength, hope and honesty was amazing.

Today I am grateful I am not so quick to judge. I still have to remind myself but it is so much better.

Today I am grateful for another good day. Both abstinent and progressive.

Today I am grateful my plans for the long weekend do not revolve around my compulsions, but around recovery and the people I love instead.

Today I am grateful for big electric screens….

Gratitude List 16/04/2019: Action

Gratitude List 16/04/2019

Yesterday the obsession was on top of me. The inevitability was strong. My will-power was about to collapse. Fortunately, I listened to God’s conscience.

Action:

Today I am grateful to have a knowledge of recovery tools.

Today I am grateful I had the strength to use this knowledge, pick up my phone and connect with a like-minded fellow.

Today I am grateful I shared with him exactly how I was feeling.

Today I am grateful I then called my girlfriend and was honest with her – how I was feeling, but also how I had been deceitful.

Today I am grateful I thanked my greater power for His guidance and strength.

What I got in return:

Today I am grateful my utter weakness was being replaced with a power greater than myself. This power came from unity, honesty and humility. As I spoke, I could feel the strength flooding back into me.

Today I am grateful the power was far stronger than the obsession. It only took a few minutes before it was completely lifted.

Today I am grateful for how connected I suddenly felt. Not only did I feel empowered I felt serene, I felt at peace.

Today I am grateful my call was a welcome one. Without me knowing, the benefits were working both ways.

Today I am grateful this was not an obsession of my primary addition. Even so, the powerlessness I felt took me right back. I am grateful for that reminder. I’d like to believe the very same tools would have arrested that addiction in the very same way.

Today I am grateful for how the direction of my day was changed. Not just my day, but potentially my week or my month.

Gratitude List 16/04/2019: Action

Gratitude List 16/04/2019

Yesterday the obsession was on top of me. The inevitability was strong. My will-power was about to collapse. Fortunately, I listened to God’s conscience.

Action:

Today I am grateful to have a knowledge of recovery tools.

Today I am grateful I had the strength to use this knowledge, pick up my phone and connect with a like-minded fellow.

Today I am grateful I shared with him exactly how I was feeling.

Today I am grateful I then called my girlfriend and was honest with her – how I was feeling, but also how I had been deceitful.

Today I am grateful I thanked my greater power for His guidance and strength.

What I got in return:

Today I am grateful my utter weakness was being replaced with a power greater than myself. This power came from unity, honesty and humility. As I spoke, I could feel the strength flooding back into me.

Today I am grateful the power was far stronger than the obsession. It only took a few minutes before it was completely lifted.

Today I am grateful for how connected I suddenly felt. Not only did I feel empowered I felt serene, I felt at peace.

Today I am grateful my call was a welcome one. Without me knowing, the benefits were working both ways.

Today I am grateful this was not an obsession of my primary addition. Even so, the powerlessness I felt took me right back. I am grateful for that reminder. I’d like to believe the very same tools would have arrested that addiction in the very same way.

Today I am grateful for how the direction of my day was changed. Not just my day, but potentially my week or my month.

Gratitude List 14/04/2019: Recovery

Gratitude List 14/04/2019

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I’m able to meet a challenge with calmness and composure.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I can be there for someone who needs my support.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I haven’t wasted any time today.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I am more patient and tolerant towards my children.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I am able to show love and forgiveness.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I can put food on the table for my family.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I have some answers.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I have humility and a faith in a greater power than myself.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I am as happy and as serene as I can remember.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means I have hope.

Today I am grateful I am in recovery. It means this list could go on and on.

Gratitude List 23/02/2019: A positive spin

Gratitude List 23/02/2019

My list today reflects on my ability to see the positive side of things. I used to only see the negatives and this naturally led to fear and resentment. These two defects are incredibly disabling. They would physically and mentally stop me from doing something.

In contrast, having a positive outlook means I am inspired and able to enjoy my journey through recovery with hope and strength.

Today I am grateful I saw the positives whilst completing each step of the recovery program.

Today I am grateful I see the positives in doing some simple daily suggestions.

Today I am grateful I can see the positive side of forgiving someone even my ego tells me they don’t deserve it.

Today I am grateful I see the positives in being completely honest with myself and others.

Today I am grateful I can see the positive side of being criticised.

Today I am grateful I see the positives of reflecting on my past.

Today I am grateful I see the positives in making a diligent effort.

Today I am grateful I see the positives to having humility and a greater power in my life.

In the past it was very easy for me to only see the negatives. With that viewpoint I would never have experienced the gratitude I have expressed above.

Gratitude List 06/02/2019: My purpose in life

Gratitude List 06/02/2019

Gratitude List 06/02/2019

For so long did I get up each day and just exist. Wander around, do what was expected of me, feed my compulsions, sleep and repeat. I had zero purpose, no goals, no aims and no ambition. Today I am grateful I have found my purpose in life. As the days go by, my purpose in life evolves and progresses alongside my recovery.

Today I am grateful I intend to go out and be the best person I can be.

To seek gratitude at all times, even during difficulties.

To do what is morally right.

To listen to people when they speak.

To remain teachable and open-minded.

To work as hard as I can.

To put in the diligent effort.

To love as much as I can.

To serve and give back to those who have helped me.

To do my bit for the unity. To connect with the people in my life.

To work the program to the best of my abilities.

To use tolerance and consideration when behaviours go against my values.

To be aware and honest with my own behaviours and action, promptly admitting when I’m wrong.

To set a good example to my children.

To improve my conscious contact with God as I understand Him.

To pass on the same message of recovery that was freely given to me.

Gratitude List 30/01/2019: ‘I can’t. We can.’

Gratitude List 30/01/2019

‘I can’t. We can.’

I have no idea of the science behind unity or whether there is any. But what is absolutely certain, is it works. Unity is empowering. Through unity I have been able to do things I could never do by myself, no matter how hard I tried, no matter what promises I made, no matter what lives I swore on.

All I have to do to practice unity is complete some simple actions. I can attend meetings with like minded fellows, share my experience, express how I am feeling, listen and relate to others, make phonecalls and meet up. When I look at each individual action, why is it I can gain power through unity? Should listening to someone give me power? Should sitting in a room full of like minded people give me power? I can’t see why they should, but they do!! Not just a bit of power, we are talking about an abundance of power which overpowers my compulsion to my illness. Something I am completely powerless over. Fellowships and their meetings have often been described as being magic and I truly believe that.

Unity, through doing some simple achievable actions has given me power. This power didn’t emulate from myself, but from the unity of the fellowship. If I can gain power from unity then I can gain even more through another greater power that can’t be explained? God perhaps.

Today I am grateful you guys and gals.

Gratitude List 27/01/2019: The Jaywalker

Gratitude List 27/01/2019

Last night served up a reminder of one of the many stories that helped my recovery. Almost 2 years ago, I began to go through the Big Book. I don’t have a drinking problem (yet) but it made no difference at all that the book was initially written for the alcoholic. By simply substituting one word to another I could relate to the contents almost 100%. The words are magic to me and played a huge role in changing my life. Today I am grateful for this amazing text. Text that, despite there being 4 editions, has been left untouched (bar the experiences shared in the back) for 90 years. Today I would like to share the story of the Jaywalker. This story helped me understand that all addictions share huge similarities, and therefore share one solution.

“Our behavior is as absurd and incomprehensible with respect to the first drink as that of an individual with a passion, say, for jay-walking. He gets a thrill out of skipping in front of fast-moving vehicles. He enjoys himself for a few years in spite of friendly warnings. Up to this point you would label him as a foolish chap having queer ideas of fun. Luck then deserts him and he is slightly injured several times in succession. You would expect him, if he were normal, to cut it out. Presently he is hit again and this time has a fractured skull. Within a week after leaving the hospital a fast-moving trolley car breaks his arm. He tells you he has decided to stop jay-walking for good, but in a few weeks he breaks both legs.”

“On through the years this conduct continues, accompanied by his continual promises to be careful or to keep off the streets altogether. Finally, he can no longer work, his wife gets a divorce and he is held up to ridicule. He tries every known means to get the jaywalking idea out of his head. He shuts himself up in an asylum, hoping to mend his ways. But the day he comes out he races in front of a fire engine, which breaks his back. Such a man would be crazy, wouldn’t he?”

“You may think our illustration is too ridiculous. But is it? We, who have been through the wringer, have to admit if we substituted alcoholism or any addiction for jay-walking, the illustration would fit exactly. However intelligent we may have been in other respects, where alcohol has been involved, we have been strangely insane. It’s strong language but isn’t it true?”