Gratitude List 02/05/2019: Never alone

Gratitude List 02/05/2019

Today I am grateful I am not alone and as a result I do not have to deal with everything by myself.

Today I am grateful I have a sponsor who I trust and respect in so many ways.

Today I am grateful for my sponsees who have no idea what their recovery and regular contact does for me.

Today I am grateful I have an abundance of like minded fellows, all of whom I feel comfortable opening up to.

Today I am grateful I have my girlfriend, who as a result of our honest relationship, is always willing to lend an understanding and supporting ear.

Today I am grateful to have a family, all of whom live close by. Again, my openness means I can reach out to them.

Today I am grateful to have friends outside the fellowship. There are a few special people I have known for a long time, true friends I can confide in.

Today I am grateful I have God in my life. A power greater than me who’s guidance and strength is always there if and when I seek it.

Today I am grateful I feel part of mankind. I see life all around me and feel connected to it. In truth, I’m never alone.

Today I am grateful I have what I have. I have felt what it’s like to have no one to turn to, no one to understand, no one to support, no one to guide, no one to believe in. I witness others struggling with the same feeling- there’s no outlet for them, if only they had what I have laid at my feet. I am truly blessed.

Gratitude List 20/04/2019: Better late than never…..

Gratitude List 20/04/2019

Better late than never…..

Today I am grateful for getting up early and making the most of this beautiful day.

Today I am grateful for an amazing day out with family and friends.

Today I am grateful I got to see some amazing animals.

Today I am grateful I didn’t try and run the show by dictating how and what we should do.

Today I am grateful I was able to afford a day out and treat my family to a meal.

Today I am grateful for my car and the freedom it gives me to go to places I want to visit.

Today I am grateful for the lack of Bank Holiday traffic.

Today I am grateful everyone enjoyed themselves.

Today I am grateful for a few photos which will one day bring back fond memories.

Today I am grateful to get back home.

Gratitude List 09/04/2019: Happy Birthday!

Gratitude List 09/04/2019

Today I am grateful to have my son wake up at ours on his 17th birthday.

Today I am grateful to have him in my life. Quite simply, it’s a blessing.

Today I am grateful for the time we get to spend together. Naturally I wish for even more, but I am grateful because my past could have led to much worse.

Today I am grateful for his courage. When I reflect on how brave he has been, it’s very inspiring.

Today I am grateful for how mature my son is. At times, he has shown maturity beyond his years.

Today I am grateful for the lessons I can learn from him. As well as courage he displays many strengths of character, strengths that I am striving for myself.

Today I am grateful for the brother he is to his little sister. He is very caring, loving, ‘tolererant’ and incredibly protective.

Today I am grateful for how friendly he is. He displays great humility and trust. His friends look to him for support and advice. He’s the go-to friend.

Today I am grateful for the shared interests we have. They bring a teenage son and his dad closer together.

Today I am grateful for our relationship. Its been a roller-coaster – some great times and some difficult times but all in all we are in a good place today.

Today I am grateful for this list. I can’t deny I often focus too much on what my son does wrong. It’s good to reflect on his many positives. He’s an amazing young man, one I’m very proud of.

Gratitude List 07/04/2019: A lovely Sunday

Gratitude List 07/04/2019

I’ve just sat down! Today, I have constantly been on my feet. But I have loved every minute of it!

Today I am grateful I enjoy entertaining. There’s nothing I like more than cooking for everyone.

Today I am grateful the weather was just about worthy of a bbq!

Today I am grateful for having a garden. Something I haven’t had since I was a child. Something I cherish.

Today I am grateful for our home which turned out to be a lovely venue. Despite the extra rooms we all congregated into one!

Today I am grateful for everyone who turned up. No matter how much preparation is done, it’s the people that make a difference.

Today I am grateful for the help of my girlfriend. She is an amazing host and I’m proud to be with her.

Today I am grateful for my kids who are absolute delights. Sometimes I can get wrapped up in trying so hard to see them succeed. This weekend I decided to let go and let them be.

Today I am grateful that my children enjoy staying with us. I know it’s not always the case in our situation.

Today I am grateful for my son, who despite in many ways he can be a stereo typical teenager, he has so many positives and I am very lucky.

Today I am grateful for all the food and drink we had to enjoy. I cannot forget how much of a blessing this is.

Today I am grateful I am doing this list. I could so easily have a nap or put on the TV and relax, but I know how important this is for me and my happiness.

Gratitude List 31/03/2019: My angel

Gratitude List 31/03/2019

Come rain or shine my mum was (and still is) always there for me. Now in recovery I can attempt to follow in her footsteps.

Today I am grateful I am there for my girlfriend, to support her through her difficult times.

Today I am grateful I am there for my son, to help him through this important stage of his life.

Today I am grateful I am there for my daughter, to receive with appreciation all the love she gives me.

Today I am grateful I am there for my friends, to unite and help them in any way I can.

Today I am grateful I am there for my dad, to listen to him as he shares with me his feelings.

Today I am grateful I am there for my brother, to be ready for if and when he decides to talk.

Today I am grateful I am there for my siblings, to support them and share memories this mother’s day.

Today I am grateful I am there for my fellows, to take (or return) calls to those in need of support.

Today I am grateful I am here for myself, to put in the diligent effort required to keep my ego at bay and continue to recover.

Today I am grateful I am there for my mum, to be connected, ready to listen to her guidance and to receive her strength and love.

My angel

Gratitude List 15/03/2019: Cramping cheeks and sore hands

Gratitude List 15/03/2019

Yesterday I went to a dance festival where my daughter was participating. It was a beautiful evening and I can reflect on it with an abundance of gratitude.

Today I am grateful for all the participants from all the schools. Each group were amazing. The performances were very artistic. It was clear everyone had practiced hard.

Today I am grateful for the people that organised the event. There were tens of schools which meant hundreds of kids and even more (big kids) in terms of over-excited passionate family members :).

Today I am grateful for music and dance. Music in particular never fails to lift my spirits. Mixed with dance just makes it all the better. I need to watch events like this more often.

Today I am grateful they didn’t allow any photography which meant I could completely enjoy the moment. The happiness within my created memories far outweigh anything a photo or video can bring.

Today I’m grateful for my fun, loving, happy, vibrant daughter. She is an absolute blessing and I am very proud to be her father. God I love her smile!

Today I’m grateful for my girlfriend who joined me at the festival. She is without a doubt the best step-mum I can possibly dream of. I saw the pride in her eyes last night, it was very humbling.

Today I am grateful for my cramping cheeks from the constant smile on my face and my sore hands from all the clapping.

Today I am grateful for the absolute joy on the faces of all the kids. They absolutely loved it. You could see how much it meant to them. I’m sure most were saying ‘that was the best day ever!’ I know my daughter was.

Today I am grateful for having my emotions back. At times, it was a bit overwhelming for me as I fought back the soppy dad tears.

Gratitude List 20/02/2019: A blessed time

Gratitude List 20/02/2019

An end of an era at our home as we move to pastures new. 90% of our time here has coincided with my two years in recovery so there are many fond memories.

Today I am grateful for the introduction of gratitude at dinner where all four of us say three things we’re grateful for.

Today I am grateful for all the gathering we’ve had with friends and family. Filling the home with unity and togetherness

Today I am grateful for all the happy celebrations – birthdays, Christmases, New Years, Easters…

Today I am grateful for all the lessons I have learnt.

Today I am grateful for all the jokes and pranks shared between us. My son putting salt in my tea was one I remember well!

Today I am grateful for the growth of the relationship between my girlfriend and my children. A lovely little family.

Today I am grateful for the hope this time has given me for our new home.

Gratitude List 02/02/2019: My children ❤️

Gratitude List 02/02/2019

One of my goals in recovery was and is to become a better father to my children.

Today I am grateful I spend less time with my phone in my hand when I’m in their company.

Today I am grateful I take more time to take an interest and help them with their education.

Today I am grateful I show them a lot more tolerance and patience than I used to.

Today I am grateful I am quick to admit when my defects come out and quick to apologise.

Today I am grateful I am not rushing off and either leaving them in the house or the car just so I can feed my addiction.

Today I am grateful I am more open and honest with them.

Today I am grateful I don’t look at them with disappointment. This was a tough one for me to admit.

Today I am grateful I don’t manipulate their feelings into feeling sorry and guilty just so I get what I want.

Today I am grateful I think before I speak. I think about my choice of words and the manner I will speak them.

Today I am grateful our relationships have become closer and more loving. When I tell them I love them, I think they believe me.

Gratitude List 28/01/2019: Family time

Gratitude List 28/01/2019

Yesterday we went out as a family to celebrate two birthdays. Today, my gratitude is based on the simple fact I can enjoy these special occasions.

Today I am grateful I was able to afford a couple of cards and a small gift each rather than turning up empty handed. Again.

Today I am grateful I showed responsibility and didn’t spend more than I could. I stayed within my means rather than feeling guilty and trying to make amends for previous years.

Today I am grateful I didn’t have to manipulate another to help out me out financially so I could pay my share of the food bill.

Today I am grateful I was present and taking in the friendship, love and atmosphere rather than thinking and wishing I was somewhere else.

Today I am grateful for my senses. I was able to see the happiness, hear the laughter, taste and smell the lovely food, and feel the love.

Today I am grateful I was truly happy, enjoying the moment and not having to hide my true emotions with a fake smile.

Today I am grateful I realise how lucky I am to have a family. Its a true blessing. I love them all so much. I am grateful that my illness didn’t ruin any of our relationships. Those that found out have been nothing but supportive and understanding.