Gratitude List 01/03/2019: ‘A leap of faith’

Gratitude List 01/03/2019

‘A leap of faith’

To me, ‘a leap of faith’ is a step into the unknown. To let go and see what happens. To trust in something Today I am grateful I listened. intangible. To trust in a power out of my control.

My list today reflects on all the defining moments within my recovery where I have taken a leap of faith. Some of these moments were forced upon me, some I was guided towards, some were due to a conscious thought of ‘what’s the worst that can happen?’

Today I am grateful I walked into the rooms.

Today I am grateful I tried to be open-minded.

Today I am grateful I shared my story.

Today I am grateful I gave service.

Today I am grateful I accepted help.

Today I am grateful I made an effort.

Today I am grateful I did what was asked.

Today I am grateful I surrendered.

Today I am grateful I let go of the manageability.

Today I am grateful I became willing to believe.

Today I am grateful I gave my life over to a power greater than myself.

Today I am grateful I faced the past.

Today I am grateful I handed over my fear.

Today I am grateful I made amends.

Today I am grateful I passed on the message.

Today I am grateful I was honest.

Today I am grateful I accepted.

Today I am grateful I listened.

Today I am grateful I chose to tolerate.

Today I am grateful I bit my lip.

Today I am grateful I forgave.

Today I am grateful I made that call.

Today I am grateful I got on my knees.

Today I am grateful I meditated.

None of the above came natural to me. None were in my make up as a person. None made up my DNA. But all of them are now. Each time I took a leap of faith the results were better than I could ever imagine. This gave me the strength and desire to leap again and again. As the results continued to be positive, the faith I was leaping for in the first place, grew in strength. Today I am grateful for my faith.

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Gratitude List 23/02/2019: A positive spin

Gratitude List 23/02/2019

My list today reflects on my ability to see the positive side of things. I used to only see the negatives and this naturally led to fear and resentment. These two defects are incredibly disabling. They would physically and mentally stop me from doing something.

In contrast, having a positive outlook means I am inspired and able to enjoy my journey through recovery with hope and strength.

Today I am grateful I saw the positives whilst completing each step of the recovery program.

Today I am grateful I see the positives in doing some simple daily suggestions.

Today I am grateful I can see the positive side of forgiving someone even my ego tells me they don’t deserve it.

Today I am grateful I see the positives in being completely honest with myself and others.

Today I am grateful I can see the positive side of being criticised.

Today I am grateful I see the positives of reflecting on my past.

Today I am grateful I see the positives in making a diligent effort.

Today I am grateful I see the positives to having humility and a greater power in my life.

In the past it was very easy for me to only see the negatives. With that viewpoint I would never have experienced the gratitude I have expressed above.

Gratitude List 12/02/2019: A new life part 2

Gratitude List 12/02/2019

Further to my list yesterday (Fear Less), another big difference between my old life and my new is the level of resentment I have to endure. Again, I am no saint, but when I see resentment in another’s eyes, because of my own experience I can feel their pain. I can feel their suffering, it’s crippling. I’m very grateful I am learning how to deal with resentments – both past and present.

Today I am grateful I no longer resent those who have caused me harm in the past. This was a heavy burden.

Today I am grateful I can better deal with resentments when they arise in my life.

Today I am grateful I rarely resent myself. This was a daily occasion.

Today I am grateful I no longer resent my past.

Today I am grateful I no longer resent the concept of higher powers, God, religion or spirituality.

Today I am grateful for the knowledge that I am the one who suffers if I hold a resentment.

Today I am grateful to know forgiveness is often the answer.

Gratitude List 08/02/2019: Spiritual habits

Gratitude List 08/02/2019

My life thus far has created my lifestyle and within my lifestyle there are many things I do on a daily basis out of habit and not necessarily because I want to. Life is like that. I brush my teeth because its good for their health, I go to work because of the income and security, I’ve done exams to further my education and qualifications. I didn’t do these things because of the joy I got in return, I did them because in there own individual way, they are good for me.

Recovery has taught me how my spiritual health is good for me. Very good for me. I’ve learnt there are many things I can do on a daily basis that that will enhance my spirituality. Most of the time I want to do these things because I enjoy them and I feel fantastic afterwards. But I am only human and my list today reflects on the things that like brushing my teeth have become habitual. If I only did things when there was a desire, I wouldn’t get much done.

Today I am grateful that prayer is becoming a habit.

Today I am grateful that meditation is becoming a habit.

Today I am grateful that being honest is becoming a habit.

Today I am grateful that connecting with others is becoming a habit.

Today I am grateful that being selfless is becoming a habit.

Today I am grateful that reading recovery based literature is becoming a habit.

Today I am grateful that being considerate, humble, forgiving and loving are becoming habits.

Today I am grateful that doing things I enjoy is becoming a habit.

Today I am grateful that sharing and listening are becoming habits.

Today I am grateful that practicing gratitude is becoming a habit.