Gratitude List 17/04/2019: In God’s hands

Gratitude List 17/04/2019

A certain part of my present life (like most of it) is quite simply in God’s hands. Today I am grateful it is. I have done what I can, there is no further action to take. I have changed the things I can and accepted the the things I cannot. Now it’s up to powers beyond my control. In the past I would have felt helpless, feared the unknown and acted un-accordingly. Today I have faith in what will be will be.

Today I am grateful to not be in control.

Today I am grateful I have faith in what is.

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Gratitude List 16/04/2019: Action

Gratitude List 16/04/2019

Yesterday the obsession was on top of me. The inevitability was strong. My will-power was about to collapse. Fortunately, I listened to God’s conscience.

Action:

Today I am grateful to have a knowledge of recovery tools.

Today I am grateful I had the strength to use this knowledge, pick up my phone and connect with a like-minded fellow.

Today I am grateful I shared with him exactly how I was feeling.

Today I am grateful I then called my girlfriend and was honest with her – how I was feeling, but also how I had been deceitful.

Today I am grateful I thanked my greater power for His guidance and strength.

What I got in return:

Today I am grateful my utter weakness was being replaced with a power greater than myself. This power came from unity, honesty and humility. As I spoke, I could feel the strength flooding back into me.

Today I am grateful the power was far stronger than the obsession. It only took a few minutes before it was completely lifted.

Today I am grateful for how connected I suddenly felt. Not only did I feel empowered I felt serene, I felt at peace.

Today I am grateful my call was a welcome one. Without me knowing, the benefits were working both ways.

Today I am grateful this was not an obsession of my primary addition. Even so, the powerlessness I felt took me right back. I am grateful for that reminder. I’d like to believe the very same tools would have arrested that addiction in the very same way.

Today I am grateful for how the direction of my day was changed. Not just my day, but potentially my week or my month.

Gratitude List 16/04/2019: Action

Gratitude List 16/04/2019

Yesterday the obsession was on top of me. The inevitability was strong. My will-power was about to collapse. Fortunately, I listened to God’s conscience.

Action:

Today I am grateful to have a knowledge of recovery tools.

Today I am grateful I had the strength to use this knowledge, pick up my phone and connect with a like-minded fellow.

Today I am grateful I shared with him exactly how I was feeling.

Today I am grateful I then called my girlfriend and was honest with her – how I was feeling, but also how I had been deceitful.

Today I am grateful I thanked my greater power for His guidance and strength.

What I got in return:

Today I am grateful my utter weakness was being replaced with a power greater than myself. This power came from unity, honesty and humility. As I spoke, I could feel the strength flooding back into me.

Today I am grateful the power was far stronger than the obsession. It only took a few minutes before it was completely lifted.

Today I am grateful for how connected I suddenly felt. Not only did I feel empowered I felt serene, I felt at peace.

Today I am grateful my call was a welcome one. Without me knowing, the benefits were working both ways.

Today I am grateful this was not an obsession of my primary addition. Even so, the powerlessness I felt took me right back. I am grateful for that reminder. I’d like to believe the very same tools would have arrested that addiction in the very same way.

Today I am grateful for how the direction of my day was changed. Not just my day, but potentially my week or my month.

Gratitude List 12/04/2019:

Gratitude List 12/04/2019

A few days ago, the reflection of the day spoke of the stillness of God (as you understand Him). How when I’m restless, I can rely on Him to be still, calm and consistent. I found this to be a very comforting thought. It made me realise how I have and how I can continue to lean on my own understanding of God to get me through life’s ups and downs.

Today I am grateful that when I suffer from fear, I can connect and seek guidance from a power who does not know fear.

Today I am grateful that when I feel resentful, I can connect and seek guidance from a power who only knows love and forgiveness.

Today I am grateful that when I am tempted to be dishonest, I can connect and seek guidance from a power who is only honest.

Today I am grateful that when I lust, I can connect and seek guidance from a power who only thinks clean.

Today I am grateful that when I am intolerant, I can connect and seek guidance from a power who considers and understands.

Today I am grateful that when I don’t know whether to accept or show courage, I can connect and seek guidance from a power who has the wisdom.

Today I am grateful that when I don’t do my best, I can connect and seek guidance from a power who does not judge.

Today I am grateful that when I am faced with challenges, I can connect and seek guidance from a power who has the answers.

Today I am grateful to be able to put these defects in the hands of a greater power that does not suffer with them. A true blessing.

Gratitude List 23/03/2019: Relationships

Gratitude List 23/03/2019

As I have progressed, quite naturally so have my relationships. There’s no denying it. Relationships that were tenuous have begun to repair. Relationships that were strong have flourished. Relationships that weren’t possible exist.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my children.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my girlfriend…. I mean my fiancĂ©e!

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my dad. And my mum too, God bless her soul.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my siblings.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with the rest of my family.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my fellows.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with God.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with the universe and with nature.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my colleagues.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my friends.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my enemies.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with money.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with food (slowly) and alcohol.

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my sanity and serenity,

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with my feelings, in particular love, forgiveness and happiness.

And most importantly…

Today I am grateful I have a better relationship with myself.

Relationships

Gratitude List 21/03/2019: Right this second

Gratitude List 21/03/2019

Right this second I am tired. I have another long day ahead of me. I’m fighting the urge to eat a crappy breakfast. I have a few niggling fears. I can’t be bothered. It’s cold. It’s grey. Yes I am a little grumpy!

But…

Right this second I am grateful for all the seconds in my day. If need be, each one is an opportunity to change my direction, flip my mood, look with different eyes and bring a smile to my face.

Right this second I am grateful to have the knowledge and tools to lift my spirits.

Right this second I am grateful to be alive.

Right this second I am grateful to be abstinent from my compulsions.

Right this second I am grateful to be in recovery.

Right this second I am grateful to be in good health.

Right this second I am grateful to be on my way to a job.

Right this second I am grateful to have a home to return to.

Right this second I am grateful to be able to walk, talk, taste, feel, smell, hear and see.

Right this second I am grateful to have food in the cupboard, water on tap, money in my pocket and clothes on my back.

Right this second I am grateful to be sane and growing in serenity.

Right this second I am grateful to have a Higher Power in my life.

Right this second I am grateful to be writing this list. It has the power to change my mood.

Right this second I am grateful to be grateful.

Gratitude List 11/03/2019: ‘These boots are made for walking’…… and these hands are made for feeling.

Gratitude List 11/03/2019

‘These boots are made for walking’…… and these hands are made for feeling.

Today my list reflects on my hands. Not the general use of my hands (although I am deeply grateful) but for the connection I feel.

Today I am grateful for prayer and meditation. When I place my hands together it’s like I’ve dialled in and connected to my greater power. My hands are my gateway to God.

Today I am grateful for holding hands at the end of a meeting. This connection is filled with unity and strength. Whilst united I can draw on this power and play my part in giving back to the flow of incredible energy.

Today I am grateful for holding the hands of my girlfriend and daughter. Through this I can express love more than I ever can with words. Actions speak louder than words.

Today I am grateful for feeling the wind blow through my fingers, the cold biting, the sun warming and the water running. Ever reminding me of nature and the big wide world around me.

Today I am grateful for the warmth and pulse I can feel within my hands. I can sense the activity of life flowing through them. What a power! I sometimes feel like I could lift an X-Wing out of a swamp in the Degobah system.

Today I am grateful for the cleansing feeling from…. yes…. cleaning my hands! It’s like I’m washing away the rubbish, refreshing them and replenishing their power.

Today I am grateful for the simple gestures of sincere support a hug or a simple hand on a shoulder can give to someone in need.

Today I am grateful for feeling my mum’s hand on my shoulder in times when I am in need. A beautiful feeling of love and support.


My daughter and I in Cornwall, UK