Gratitude List 22/02/2019: Greater Powers

Gratitude List 22/02/2019

I hope this makes sense…. There’s a point in there somewhere…

Came to believe in power greater than myself. The second step in the program and one I used to stumble on.

Step one was far easier – admitting I was powerless over my addiction and that my life had become unmanageable. But by completing step one, hadn’t I already acknowledged a power greater than myself – my addiction? I’m not suggesting that anyone should hand their lives over to their compulsions, that’s what got me into trouble in the first place. But what of the polar opposite – recovery? In my own experience recovery has overpowered my addiction, it is stronger. Therefore the concept of ‘recovery’ can definitely be one of my greater powers. Recovery is a God of my own understanding. Like my addiction, recovery has given me experiences I never thought possible, so making a decision to turn my will over to the concept of ‘recovery’ is an easy choice and one I have faith in.

My addiction is but one of the many things I can struggle with. My life was unmanageable because of them. Each of them can overpower me if my spiritual connection is low. But today I am grateful for the fact that every negative has an opposite which is positive and even more powerful. I am therefore, surrounded by things that are more powerful than me.

Where there’s addiction there is recovery.

Where there is insanity there is sanity.

Where there is fear there is serenity.

Where there is isolation there is unity.

Where there is self there is selfless.

Where there is dishonesty there is sincerity.

Where there is arrogance there is humility.

Where there’s hate there is love.

Where there is a rock bottom there is hope.

Where there is death there is life.

I would happily get down on my knees and pray to any of them. And do it with a faith that help will come.


Gratitude List 20/02/2019: A blessed time

Gratitude List 20/02/2019

An end of an era at our home as we move to pastures new. 90% of our time here has coincided with my two years in recovery so there are many fond memories.

Today I am grateful for the introduction of gratitude at dinner where all four of us say three things we’re grateful for.

Today I am grateful for all the gathering we’ve had with friends and family. Filling the home with unity and togetherness

Today I am grateful for all the happy celebrations – birthdays, Christmases, New Years, Easters…

Today I am grateful for all the lessons I have learnt.

Today I am grateful for all the jokes and pranks shared between us. My son putting salt in my tea was one I remember well!

Today I am grateful for the growth of the relationship between my girlfriend and my children. A lovely little family.

Today I am grateful for the hope this time has given me for our new home.

Gratitude List 17/02/2019: Not going to miss it!

Gratitude List 17/02/2019

A busy day today, hense the lateness of my gratitude list.

Today I am grateful I will not miss a day of expressing gratitude. Doing these lists have meant so much to me and my recovery.

Today I am grateful for this 10 minutes while the dinner is cooking. If I don’t do my list now, I probably won’t get another chance.

Today I am grateful I am not using these 10 minutes to flick through Facebook or Twitter!!

Today I am grateful I enjoy doing these lists. They are non-negotiable but that’s not why I do them.

Today I am grateful for the gratitude lists I have been sent today. Each of them very inspiring and serene to read.

Today I am grateful that this list is already broadening my smile. After this, its dinner and cuddles with my daughter…. And my son if he allows it!

Gratitude List 14/02/2019: Loving life

Gratitude List 14/02/2019

Today I am grateful for another stunning sunrise. Absolutely beautiful and a strong reminder of where I am.

Today I am grateful for my girlfriend. An amazing person sent from my higher power. Many others wouldn’t have been up for the job!! I’m truly blessed to have her.

Today I am grateful she is also the perfect step mum. While I was working until late la’s night, she was looking after my kids, teaching and having fun.

Today I am grateful I am becoming a better partner. I must’ve been such hard work in the past. I admire her resilience.

Today I am grateful I feel more spiritually equipped for a relationship.

Today I am grateful for my daughter’s face this morning. She has the most vibrant smile and cheeky laugh!

Today I am grateful she thinks it’s funny when I call out in front of her school friends to say ‘I love you!!’ She’ll be an embarrassed teenager soon so getting it out while I still can.

Today I am grateful for my teenage son who has shown amazing maturity lately. I honestly admit I have learnt a lot from him recently.

Today I am grateful for the kindness and generosity of a very good friend.

Today I am I’ve experienced the dark days. It makes me appreciate my happiness even more. Maybe I wouldn’t have found gratitude. What a beautiful day it is today. Much love.

Gratitude List 13/02/2019: My day has started

Gratitude List 13/02/2019

Today I am grateful to get up at the crack of dawn. To make the most of today. Once this day has gone it’ll be gone forever.

Today I am grateful I have started my day well. I am in the process of beginning my day as suggested. I intend for my day to continue in the same way.

Today I am grateful to hear the early bird songs, see the dawning sky and feel the cold crisp air.

Today I am grateful I left my home with a smile on my face and an abundance of love.

Today I am grateful I am on my way to meet a good friend, to unite and to pass on the same message that saved my own.

Today I am grateful for the job I will go to afterwards. For the income that provides me with shelter, food and security.

Today I am grateful for the prepared lunch I have in my bag. Its healthy, plentiful and cheap.

Today I am grateful for the half hour break I will have by myself. Probably the only opportunity I’ll have. I intend to fill it with something that’s good for me.

Today I am grateful I am then collecting my children. I don’t get to see them as often as I’d like but I am truly blessed to see them at all.

Today I am grateful I am looking forward to finding out about my children’s day, helping them with their work, sitting at the dinner table together, and reading to my daughter at bed time.

Today I am grateful for the tools I have gained which will enable me to deal with my day, especially when it doesn’t go to plan. Through my spiritual connection I feel powerful today.

Today I am grateful to be alive.

Gratitude List 12/02/2019: A new life part 2

Gratitude List 12/02/2019

Further to my list yesterday (Fear Less), another big difference between my old life and my new is the level of resentment I have to endure. Again, I am no saint, but when I see resentment in another’s eyes, because of my own experience I can feel their pain. I can feel their suffering, it’s crippling. I’m very grateful I am learning how to deal with resentments – both past and present.

Today I am grateful I no longer resent those who have caused me harm in the past. This was a heavy burden.

Today I am grateful I can better deal with resentments when they arise in my life.

Today I am grateful I rarely resent myself. This was a daily occasion.

Today I am grateful I no longer resent my past.

Today I am grateful I no longer resent the concept of higher powers, God, religion or spirituality.

Today I am grateful for the knowledge that I am the one who suffers if I hold a resentment.

Today I am grateful to know forgiveness is often the answer.

Gratitude List 09/02/2019: Appreciate

Gratitude List 09/02/2019

What this picture doesn’t show is the young female who moments ago had her arm deep inside the bin only to pull out an empty coffee cup that somebody just discarded. I can only assume it was to beg with as she then joined a young male sitting on the drenched pavement.

What it also doesn’t show is me sitting in a warm and dry coffee shop, still with my thick, waterproof coat on, eating something I really don’t need to be eating.

Today I am grateful I realise how lucky I am and for how much I appreciate what I have.

Today I am grateful that buying them something warm to eat wasn’t an after thought.

Today I am grateful I had a desire to invite them in and get what they wanted so they could sit in the dry. I didn’t, but the thought was there.

Today I am grateful for the few words we shared together. Human being to human being.

Today I am grateful for then meeting an amazing fellow at the tube station across the road. Such a lovely guy.

Today I am grateful the rucksack he was wearing reminded me I’d left my own at the coffee shop.

Today I am grateful for the man who indicated he put my bag behind the counter. There was a lot of important and personal belongings inside.

Today I am grateful for karma.