Gratitude List 02/06/2019

Gratitude List 02/06/2019Today I am grateful that despite there being some immaturity on display last night, there was also vast improvements.Today I am grateful I thought of others enjoying success and that put a smile on my face.Today I am grateful I am not hungover today – physically or emotionally. I still have that smile on my face. Today I am grateful for the trek around Trent Park today. Such a beautiful place and good to get the body moving.Today I am grateful for the meditation that was done at the end of it. It was great listening to the silence that surrounded nature’s calls. Today I am grateful for meeting up unexpectedly with some friends. A lovely catch up whilst sitting in the beautiful sunshine.Today I am grateful I was able to stop after one chocolate biscuit. Today I am grateful to be drinking more water these days. There is definitely a link and goes hand in hand with my compulsive eating. Today I am grateful my inventory has been guided to new levels and I am getting so much more from it. Today I am grateful I am using my first opportunity to do this list. My window of opportunity this morning was unexpectedly taken away so this was my next available void.👍🏻💪🏻❤🙏🏻😊

Gratitude List 09/05/2019: Responsibility

Gratitude List 09/05/2019

Today I am grateful for the change I was able to give to the homeless person on the tube. I have to admit I’ve ignored the last few.

Today I am grateful for the change I was able to give to the meetings collection. This fellowship has saved my life, its the least I can do.

Today I am grateful for the lunch I was able to buy a dear friend. It was nice to return the favour and enjoy his company.

Today I am grateful for the gift I was able to buy my well deserved girlfriend. I’ve been planning to do this for some time.

Today I am grateful I was able to buy my dad a drink. Too often did I just stay quiet when he continued to bear the brunt of the bill.

Today I am grateful for the lack of appreciation I expected in return.

Today I am grateful I am able to budget for days like this.

Today I am grateful I am more responsible with money which allows me to have days like this.

Today I am grateful I don’t feel guilt or regret when I spend money like I did today.

Today I am grateful I can reflect on the fact that despite a more fruitful day, it still didn’t come close to some of my more outrageous wagers.

Gratitude List 28/02/2019: Definition of a Mature Person Part Four

Gratitude List 28/02/2019

Definition of a Mature Person Part Four

Also see part 1, part 2 and part 3

15. We are not chronic “fault finders”?

Today I am grateful I am not a chronic fault finder. Well at least I think I’m not. Because I now tend to see the good in people and situations, I rarely speak out loud about it. Fault finding tends to be something I keep in my mind, but even that is a rare occurrence. I’m also grateful for the awareness to not be a chronic fault finder when it comes to myself.

16. We plan things in advance rather than trusting in the inspiration of the moment?

Today I am grateful this is getting much better. I was awful at planning. I’d even go as far as saying I didn’t plan at all. I think I was so scared of my future which was once so uncertain. I took ‘trusting the inspiration of the moment’ to a whole new level! I am aware of the fine line between planning and taking my own will back. But through my higher power (and my incredibly organised girlfriend) I find myself more prepared than ever before.

In terms of spiritual maturity:

l. We have faith in a Higher Power?

Yes yes yes! Today I am humbly grateful I have a Higher Power! To say this is vital to my own recovery is an understatement. It grew from a willingness, to a belief, to a faith. Letting go of control is a true blessing. Every time I let go my faith is enhanced by the results that come my way. There’s no better way to find a faith than to take a leap of faith.

2. We feel an organic part of mankind as a whole, contributing our part to each group of which we are a member?

Today I am grateful I do feel part of mankind, especially when I’m spiritually well. Addiction was such a lonely place. Even when I was surrounded by people I (a) felt lonely and (b) craved to be alone and left to my own desires. I also contribute to the many groups I belong to much more than ever before, whether it be the fellowship, my family, my friends, my colleagues. I care little if anyone else does, as long as I do my bit. I do want to contribute a little more to my community, that is an area for improvement.

3. We obey the spiritual essence of the Golden Rule: “Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself?”

Today I am grateful I have learnt to love myself. I am proud of who I am becoming. I have a growing spirituality in my life. Now I love myself I can now love those around me.

Gratitude List 27/02/2019: Definition of a Mature Person Part Three

Gratitude List 27/02/2019

Definition of an Mature Person Part 3 (see part 1 and part 2)

10. We can endure defeat and disappointment without whining or complaining?

Today I am grateful the most positive thing about enduring defeat is I rarely feel defeated. Not in an arrogant ‘I never lose’ way, because I don’t win much either. Plus my football team often get defeated when I don’t expect them too! What I mean is I rarely whine or complain and if I do it doesn’t last long. Wow it used to so different!

11. We do not worry unduly about things that cannot be helped?

Today I am grateful I don’t worry for the right reasons. Before, I didn’t worry about things because I utilised surpression instead, I didn’t have the strength to cope with life’s challenges. Today, I don’t worry because of acceptance. I do my upmost to accept the things I cannot change. I do my best to accept life on life’s terms.

12. We are not given to boasting or “showing off in socially unacceptable ways?

Today I am grateful this has hugely improved. I still occasionally feed my ego and join in with unhealthy banter or gossip, but I do try not too. My boasting has been cut down and replaced with humbleness. I used to crave recognition for everything from everyone. Today I find myself giving praise to others.

13. We are honestly glad when others enjoy success or good fortune. We have outgrown envy and jealousy?

Today I am grateful I do enjoy it when others are successful or have good fortune. I really do. I am quick to congratate them. My envy and jealousy always led to self-pity. Now, I am outgrowing these defects. Practicing gratitude has played a huge role in me appreciating what I have instead of always desiring what I do not.

14. We are open-minded enough to listen thoughtfully to the opinions of others and do not become vigorously argumentative when our views are opposed?

Today I am grateful open-mindedness is now in my life. I admit I had to Google the meaning to start with. Listening to the opinions of others? Me? Never! It was my way or the highway and I would vigorously argue until I proved it. Or I would sit in silence and let resentments spin out of control in my mind. Today, I remind myself to accept people for who they are and accept that people’s views and values will differ from mine.

Gratitude List 25/02/2019: Definition of a Mature Person – Part One

Gratitude List 25/02/2019

l. We accept criticism gratefully, being honestly glad for an opportunity to improve?

Today I am grateful I am learning to accept criticism gratefully. This is not easy, because my default position was to react with arrogance, self-pity, anger and resentment. But I am getting better, I am learning how to deal with my emotions, characteristics and how to let go. Even when criticism does cause me harm, if I manage to bite my lip, I often see the lessons to be learned once the red mist clears.

2. We do not indulge in self-pity and have begun to feel the laws of compensation operating in all life?

Today I am grateful for a huge improvement with regards to self-pity. Sure, it still plays a part in my life but in contrast to what it used to, it’s a million times better. When it comes to ‘the laws of compensation’ (after Googling the meaning) I can safely say I have begun to feel it in my life – it’s very evident in my recovery.

3. We do not expect special consideration from anyone?

Today I am grateful for the progression in this. Early on in my recovery I craved recognition for my abstinence and my efforts. Prior to that I desired sympathy for the difficulties I created. The humility I have gained through the step work has made me realise I am not the arbiter of the universe. I am no more special than my neighbour, I am a being, just like the billions of others.

4. We control our temper?

Today I am grateful for my improved control over my temper. With regards to my girlfriend I feel it has come on tenfolds. I still lose my temper with my kids, but far less often and when I do, at least I have control in a sense of my awareness and desire to keep improving.

🙏🏻😊💪🏻👍🏻❤

Gratitude List 03/02/2019: So proud

Gratitude List 03/02/2019

Something big happened today. In fact it happened a while ago but it came to light today. Something I knew was going to happen. It didn’t happened the way I had planned, but now it’s done, I believe it happened the way it was meant to.

Today I am grateful for a particular person. I am very proud of this person’s maturity and forgiveness.

Today I am grateful there was a relief for this person.

I am grateful I was in recovery for the last year.

Today I am grateful I am there for this person.

Today I am grateful I didn’t react with resentment towards another.

Today I am grateful I instead used consideration and understanding.

Today I am grateful I didn’t respond with desperate dishonesty.

Today I am grateful I instead humbly accepted the situation for what it was.

Today I am grateful I am in touch with my emotions. In particular love.

Today I am grateful that this program works!!!