Gratitude List 07/04/2019: Spot-check Gratitude

Gratitude List 06/04/2019

Spot-check Gratitude

06:21am Today I am grateful to be up with my girlfriend. Bright and early, making the most of our day together.

07:35am Today I am grateful to peek inside their respective rooms and see my son and daughter fast asleep and all cosy in their beds.

08:02am Today I am grateful to connect with someone I admire and look up to. A very close friend for life.

08:35am Today I am grateful to catch a coal tit feeding on camera. Another bird to our garden’s catalogue.

09:12am Today I am grateful that my daughter and her friend are having fun together dancing in the living room. Yes 9:12am! Friendship is precious.

09:17am Today I am grateful for David Attenborough and the like who bring the amazing world to our TVs. Its beautiful out there!

10:10am Today I am grateful I can hear my daughter and girlfriend talking upstairs about boys! Love listening to them, they have a great and loving relationship.

10:53am Today I am grateful I thought before I spoke.

11:39am Today I am grateful for the display of generousity, kindness and affection.

11:39am Today I am grateful for the display of gratitude and thanks that followed.

Gratitude List 15/02/2019: Defining moments

Gratitude List 15/02/2019

Defining moments.

There have been quite a few defining moments during my recovery.

Today I am grateful my three good friends who declined to lend me money. Initially I was so angry because I knew they had it. Thankfully two of them got together and spoke, one knew a little about addiction and knew the money wouldn’t go to good use.

Today I am grateful for being backed into a corner with no way out. The only way was to come clean. Had there been the slightest of gaps I would’ve got through it and caused even more destruction.

Today I am grateful for the unwarranted understanding and support I was given by so many people I’d harmed so much.

Today I am grateful for the female who decades ago made me aware of the fellowships. From that point on, I knew there was somewhere to go.

Today I am grateful for message of recovery which eventually sunk in through my ego. The realisation that despite some abstinence I hadn’t changed at all. I didn’t like who I was. The problem was me.

Today I am grateful for meeting my now sponsor for the first time and the leap of faith I took. He was there offering a selfless service but my ego wanted me to resist. My gut instinct was to think ‘what’s the worst that can happen?’ I took that first step.

Today I am grateful for discovering a willingness to believe in a God of my own understanding. Quite simply, ‘who am I to say there’s no God’.

In hindsight, I can clearly see that these defining moments were acts of my God as I understand Him. I know He’s been with me all the way, doing what He needed to do for me to see the light. Since then I have experienced many other defining moments that Unity, Recovery and Service has brought me.