Gratitude List 25/07/2018

Today, I was yet again blessed with spectacular views, this time the surroundings of Wasdale Water including England’s tallest mountain Scafell Pike. In the past, if I was able to drag my mind away from my addiction, albeit for just a brief moment, I would have been able to enjoy the sight, sound, and smells of such scenery. Thanks to recovery and practicing meditation (in particular, mindfulness), today I was able to fully take in and appreciate my phenomenal surroundings for a more prolonged time.

Today I am grateful for:

– mindfulness

– my senses

– the present moment

– meditation

– fresh air

– vibrant life

– tranquillity

– colour

– silence

– serenity

– the awe of nature


Nature and its beauty

Gratitude List 20/05/2018

This morning, my girlfriend and I had a walk in Trent Park in North London. It was an absolutely beautiful walk. Full bodied trees, budding flowers, an abundance of different birds, tranquille water holes and lots of people having fun and enjoying the beautiful weather. I’ve always had a soft spot for nature and its not surprising that nature can represent one of my higher powers. So, today I am grateful for….

The light from the sun that produced all the magnificent colours on display.

The beautiful sounds of birds, water, laughing and the gusts of wind.

The perfectly blue sky, only spoilt by the occasional artistic cloud.

The spiritual experience when my feet felt connected with the earth – grasping new roots. Yes, I am standing on Earth!

The fresh air filling my lungs.

Watching every dog appreciating the simple things – happiness, joy, fun and love for their owners.

Being with my girlfriend who shares my love for nature and its beauty.

The miracle of life that absolutely surrounded me today, I was engulfed it.

At the very least

Gratitude List 05/04/2018

A continuation of my thinking yesterday. I am currently feeling really grateful at the moment and it’s bringing an abundance of serenity. The words gratitude, privilege, respect, appreciate and phrases like ‘at the very least’ are following me around and I’m loving it.

Company. I’m so often not present when accompanied. There are many people who are alone and would love nothing more than to have a chat. Yes, I could go chat to these people myself but I can’t chat to everyone. ‘At the very least’ I can respect this privilege by making the most of the time I am with people.

My body/health. Something I take for granted on a daily basis. Not 24 hours a day but it definitely could be better. Again, there are many people who are suffering with their health and would love to be as well as I currently am. I have no control over anyone’s health but ‘at the very least’ I can appreciate my own health by doing what I can to look after my body. As a bonus, this way of thinking is giving me strength when tempted by a cake or fast food and is inspiring me to get my trainers on!

Nature. I am very lucky to live in a city with so many parks, woods, trails etc. And within these there is beauty and life everywhere, no matter what the season. Whether it be the trees, flowers, birds, insects, fish, rivers, brooks, lakes, hills etc. ‘At the very least’ I can visit these places often, appreciate the beauty, enjoy the views, take an interest and breathe in the fresh air.

My senses. I woke up this morning with all my senses intact. Some people haven’t and some never have. I have no power to change anyone’s circumstances, including my own in respect to senses. ‘At the very least’ I will try to not take them for granted, but instead appreciate every beautiful thing I see, every laughter I hear, every bite I taste, every scent I smell and every cuddle I feel.

My recovery. I feel truly blessed to be in recovery. There are thousands, if not millions out there suffering not knowing there is an answer. I know, I was one of them. It is down to the person to find the courage and seek help. I have to accept I cannot push them into something they are not ready for. ‘At the very least’ I can take advantage of all there is to offer in recovery. All the wisdom, the experience, the literature, the strength, the hope. And put in my maximum effort.

Higher Power(s)

Gratitude List 29/03/2018

Since discovering humility I have become increasingly aware of the higher powers that surround me. It amazes me how everyday, I was able to go about my day-to-day business without acknowledging them. Today I am humbly grateful for these higher powers that keep me and my self grounded.

The sun, the moon, the stars, the sky. All of which were nothing more to me than a picture in a school textbook. They actually exist and I am in the middle of the solar system I once learnt about.

The miracle of life. It is estimated that humans share the planet with as many as 8.7 million different forms of life. I am surrounded by life.

Wisdom – the quality of having experience, knowledge, and good judgement. There is an abundance of wisdom out there, I just need to be open-minded and willing to receive it.

Friendship and support. Embracing this takes me to my sanctuary – a place I feel comfortable, a place I feel understood, a place I feel at home.

Love. A positive energy that flows through me like……….like love. Quite simply, there is no other equal.

Faith. No matter how someone interprets their own higher power I can draw strength from them and the ‘leaps of faith’ they take. You can see it in their faces – their confidence, their calmness, their hope, their faith.

God. I do not follow a particular religion, never have. But do I believe there is a God? Yes I do, with as much enthusiasm as I believed in Father Christmas as a child! Do I need proof? No. Wise words were once written ‘Who are you to say there is no God.’ That’s enough for me.


What Lies Ahead

Gratitude List 26/02/2018

On this bitterly cold winters day how can I not be grateful for….

My home – the insulated walls breaking the wind, the carpeted floor and the roof over my head. Central heating at the flick of a switch. A large thick duvet. Hot food. (my oven). Hot water. (my kettle, my boiler). My hat, scarf, gloves and coat.

That my hard days aren’t that hard.

That I don’t really have anything to complain about.

That my day has a plan, some structure, some permanence.

That my day is full of possibilities and opportunities.

That I am not alone.

That my day doesn’t solely rely on hope and the help of others.

That I have an idea of what lies ahead.

That I can say with some confidence that I will get through the day.

That I know where I will rest my head tonight.


Gratitude List 25/02/2018

Gratitude for an amazing trip away.

For the perfect travel companion. We share so many interests. Thankfully, she dislikes shopping too!

For being in the sky, amongst the beautiful clouds.

For being closer to the sun. Although its only 38,000 feet closer I believe I can draw more from its undoubted power.

That I am sitting in a miracle of engineering.

The views of the land below, in particular the coastlines and the Pyrénées.

To the time, effort and dedication undertaken by the pilot.

The service and smiles of the staff.

The fact we’re flying from one great city to another.

My upbringing and education along with everyone who has supported me in my life thus far. Without them I’d have no job. Without a job I’d have no money. Without money I wouldn’t be on this flight.