Gratitude List 26/02/2019: Definition of a Mature Person Part Two.

Gratitude List 26/02/2019

Definition of a Mature Person Part Two. (see part one here Part 1)

5. We meet emergencies with poise?

Today I am grateful this is something I have definitely improved on. For me, I could’ve turned anything into an emergency. I loved to make a mountain out of a molehill! Today, not only do I do not do that, I do seem to be more calm when it comes to pressured situations, including a recent big test.

6. Our feelings are not easily hurt?

Today I am grateful that despite the fact my feelings still get hurt, it’s not as often as before. Sometimes they are hurt easily but when they are, I am aware they shouldn’t be and I can use the tools I’ve gained through recovery to see me through. As a result I respond to any harm (intended or not) so much better than before and less harm is caused in return.

7. We accept the responsibility of our own acts?

Today I am grateful I am quicker to accept responsibility for my acts. Again, I’m no way near perfect but it’s definitely getting better. These days, I tend not to blame everyone else for how I feel. This is hugely down to the fact I learnt where I was to blame in past situations.

8. We have outgrown the “all or nothing” stage, recognising that no person or situation is wholly good or bad and begun to appreciate the Golden Mean?

Today I am grateful I now see the good in people and not only the bad. I used to see so much bad, that even if the good was glaring in my face I would ignore it. This includes the good in myself. As for the Golden Mean, I do feel like I’m living on a more level plane. No more am I riding a corkscrew of a roller-coaster. There’s still ups and downs but it’s more of a caterpillar ride.

9. We are not impatient at unreasonable delays. We have learned that we are not the arbiters of the universe and that we must often adjust to other people and their convenience?

Today I am grateful for my awareness that this needs to be improved. I am still too quick to lose my patience, whether it be with my kids or the traffic. At least I can admit this now and know I’m in the wrong. In the past it was more a case of other people needing to adjust themselves to my convenience. Despite the need for improvement, I’ve come a long way since then.

Gratitude List 28/01/2019: Family time

Gratitude List 28/01/2019

Yesterday we went out as a family to celebrate two birthdays. Today, my gratitude is based on the simple fact I can enjoy these special occasions.

Today I am grateful I was able to afford a couple of cards and a small gift each rather than turning up empty handed. Again.

Today I am grateful I showed responsibility and didn’t spend more than I could. I stayed within my means rather than feeling guilty and trying to make amends for previous years.

Today I am grateful I didn’t have to manipulate another to help out me out financially so I could pay my share of the food bill.

Today I am grateful I was present and taking in the friendship, love and atmosphere rather than thinking and wishing I was somewhere else.

Today I am grateful for my senses. I was able to see the happiness, hear the laughter, taste and smell the lovely food, and feel the love.

Today I am grateful I was truly happy, enjoying the moment and not having to hide my true emotions with a fake smile.

Today I am grateful I realise how lucky I am to have a family. Its a true blessing. I love them all so much. I am grateful that my illness didn’t ruin any of our relationships. Those that found out have been nothing but supportive and understanding.