Gratitude List 30/04/2019: Not in control! Phew!

Gratitude List 30/04/2019

The majority of my day is under the control of my work and that will continue to be the case until later this afternoon. In the past, work was one of the very few things that had an element of control me. To be honest, they had less control than they thought!!

Today I am grateful I am letting work dictate what I do.

Today I am grateful that when work doesn’t have full control, it’s because I have given control over to my sponsor or a greater power as I work the steps or do the daily suggestions.

Today I am grateful I am not in control and frantically looking for ways (any way) to get my hands on some money.

Today I am grateful I am not in control and making up excuses as to why I need to leave the office.

Today I am grateful I am not in control and looking around in fear of being seen to enter a bookies.

Today I am grateful I am not in control and running to and from the ATM.

Today I am grateful I am not in control and I don’t have to wear a happy and professional face when I return, pretending everything is okay.

Today I am grateful I am not in control and sitting on the toilet (trousers up) playing online.

Today I am grateful I am not in control and freaking out when I’ve forgot to put my phone on silent.

Today I am grateful I am not in control and creating reasons why I’m still at work when I should be on my way home.

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Gratitude List 10/02/2019: Waking a little low

Gratitude List 10/02/2019

Sometimes I wake up feeling a little low. Feeling like there’s something wrong. Am I in fear? Did I say something the night before, something I’m now regretting?

After a short while I reflect on my life, my day, my fears and my resentments. What I realise is there’s nothing wrong at all. My life is good, I have nothing to fear and I’m not suffering with an emotional hangover.

Maybe I awoke listening to Radio Me and all I needed to do was get on my knees and kick-start another day. Did I wake with the spiritual malady intact?

Whatever it is, I really don’t mind. Today I am grateful I am aware of who I am. I am aware that my life is good and I have a lot to be grateful for. I am aware that this is a daily program. I am aware if I don’t do the necessary suggestions then that spiritual malady can manifest throughout the day. Today I am grateful and aware of what I need to do to quickly turn my day around.