Gratitude List 03/04/2019: The Lie(s)

Gratitude List 03/04/2019

The Lie(s)

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I am better than everyone else.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants to tell me I am strong.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to believe I am safe.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I know all I need to know.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I am recovered.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness tells me I don’t need to be honest.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness tells me I have done enough, I have put in enough effort.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to negotiate.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to experiment.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to sit at home instead of going to a meeting, watch Netflix instead of doing my suggestions, go to bed without praying, hate instead of love, expect instead of appreciate, manage instead of let go, isolate instead of unite, change instead of accept, accept instead of change, resent instead of forgive, fear instead of live.

That is a very brief summary of the spiritual malady my illness brought me in the past and can still bring me if I take my foot off the pedal. I need to stay on my toes and keep putting in the diligent effort on a daily basis. If I don’t, the lies will lead to complacency and I know only to well where that will lead me.

With this awareness comes knowledge, knowledge of and faith in a solution, a solution that allows me to accept what my illness is trying to do and counter it with positive action, positive action that brings a smile to my face.

Gratitude List 29/03/2019: Seek the positives

Gratitude List 29/03/2019

Flipping the negatives = a change of mindset.

Today I am grateful that although I’m exhausted it’s because I worked hard yesterday and not because I’m feeding my compulsions.

Today I am grateful that although my legs ache (and the hips don’t lie, Shakira Shakira) it’s because of the positive exercise I did yesterday.

Today I am grateful that although I missed some fellowship last night, I got to unite three times in the days before. Where I live, I have opportunities every day!

Today I am grateful that although I have a fear, it’s small in comparison to those I used to create and this one will more than likely be nothing to worry about.

Today I am grateful that although I have another busy day ahead of me, most of it I will enjoy, plus I don’t have to work the weekend.

Today I am grateful that although I am aware I need to improve certain aspects of my life, I have come a long, long way and can use that success to motivate me further.

Today I am grateful that although I picked up my phone to use whilst driving I told myself to not be stupid, put it down and pulled over.

Today I am grateful that although I was caused harm and as a result felt resentment, I know how to deal with it quickly and sufficiently without making things worse.

Today I grateful that although my phone network has packed up today, I have still been able to text and call, plus I’ve actually enjoyed it. Hence the delay in sending this list ;).

Today I am grateful I am able to put a positive spin on negative things. I used to do the opposite.

Gratitude List 15/03/2019: Cramping cheeks and sore hands

Gratitude List 15/03/2019

Yesterday I went to a dance festival where my daughter was participating. It was a beautiful evening and I can reflect on it with an abundance of gratitude.

Today I am grateful for all the participants from all the schools. Each group were amazing. The performances were very artistic. It was clear everyone had practiced hard.

Today I am grateful for the people that organised the event. There were tens of schools which meant hundreds of kids and even more (big kids) in terms of over-excited passionate family members :).

Today I am grateful for music and dance. Music in particular never fails to lift my spirits. Mixed with dance just makes it all the better. I need to watch events like this more often.

Today I am grateful they didn’t allow any photography which meant I could completely enjoy the moment. The happiness within my created memories far outweigh anything a photo or video can bring.

Today I’m grateful for my fun, loving, happy, vibrant daughter. She is an absolute blessing and I am very proud to be her father. God I love her smile!

Today I’m grateful for my girlfriend who joined me at the festival. She is without a doubt the best step-mum I can possibly dream of. I saw the pride in her eyes last night, it was very humbling.

Today I am grateful for my cramping cheeks from the constant smile on my face and my sore hands from all the clapping.

Today I am grateful for the absolute joy on the faces of all the kids. They absolutely loved it. You could see how much it meant to them. I’m sure most were saying ‘that was the best day ever!’ I know my daughter was.

Today I am grateful for having my emotions back. At times, it was a bit overwhelming for me as I fought back the soppy dad tears.

Gratitude List 14/02/2019: Loving life

Gratitude List 14/02/2019

Today I am grateful for another stunning sunrise. Absolutely beautiful and a strong reminder of where I am.

Today I am grateful for my girlfriend. An amazing person sent from my higher power. Many others wouldn’t have been up for the job!! I’m truly blessed to have her.

Today I am grateful she is also the perfect step mum. While I was working until late la’s night, she was looking after my kids, teaching and having fun.

Today I am grateful I am becoming a better partner. I must’ve been such hard work in the past. I admire her resilience.

Today I am grateful I feel more spiritually equipped for a relationship.

Today I am grateful for my daughter’s face this morning. She has the most vibrant smile and cheeky laugh!

Today I am grateful she thinks it’s funny when I call out in front of her school friends to say ‘I love you!!’ She’ll be an embarrassed teenager soon so getting it out while I still can.

Today I am grateful for my teenage son who has shown amazing maturity lately. I honestly admit I have learnt a lot from him recently.

Today I am grateful for the kindness and generosity of a very good friend.

Today I am I’ve experienced the dark days. It makes me appreciate my happiness even more. Maybe I wouldn’t have found gratitude. What a beautiful day it is today. Much love.