Gratitude List 28/05/2019

Gratitude List 28/05/2019

Today I am grateful for the reminders of my powerlessness over certain things.

Today I am grateful for the reminders of where my illness can take me (has taken me).

Today I am grateful there is a solution out there, and that I have been guided through it.

Today I am grateful I am currently working the solution – recovery, unity, service.

Today I am grateful there is always room for improvement.

Today I am grateful for my daily inventory which highlights the things I can do better.

Today I am grateful that my recovery is spilling over into my life outside of the meetings.

Today I am grateful I predominantly sticking to my lane and not venturing into others. (thanks Steve)

Today I am grateful for the lack of fear and resentment I have to suffer in my life.

Today I am grateful to be living a life beyond my wildest dreams. One, a few years ago, I never thought possible.

💪🏻👍🏻🙏🏻😊❤

Gratitude List 01/05/2019: I will still…

Gratitude List 01/05/2019

Sometimes things don’t go to plan. It would be easy for me to think ‘Why bother? What’s the point?’

Today I am grateful I don’t think like that at all. Instead I feel the importance of the program more than ever before.

Today I am grateful I still have faith and I will still get on my knees and pray.

Today I am grateful I still feel humble and want guidance and strength from a power greater than I. I will still sit silently, meditate and listen.

Today I am grateful I still see the importance of Unity and I will still reach out and connect with other fellows.

Today I am grateful I still feel supported (not alone) and I will still call my sponsor to get things off my chest.

Today I am grateful I still want to feel inspired and motivated and I will still read some recovery based literature.

Today I am grateful I still desire spiritual growth and I will still practice honesty when I do my inventory this evening.

Today I am grateful I still have gratitude and I will still complete this list.

Gratitude List 03/04/2019: The Lie(s)

Gratitude List 03/04/2019

The Lie(s)

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I am better than everyone else.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants to tell me I am strong.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to believe I am safe.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I know all I need to know.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I am recovered.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness tells me I don’t need to be honest.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness tells me I have done enough, I have put in enough effort.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to negotiate.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to experiment.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to sit at home instead of going to a meeting, watch Netflix instead of doing my suggestions, go to bed without praying, hate instead of love, expect instead of appreciate, manage instead of let go, isolate instead of unite, change instead of accept, accept instead of change, resent instead of forgive, fear instead of live.

That is a very brief summary of the spiritual malady my illness brought me in the past and can still bring me if I take my foot off the pedal. I need to stay on my toes and keep putting in the diligent effort on a daily basis. If I don’t, the lies will lead to complacency and I know only to well where that will lead me.

With this awareness comes knowledge, knowledge of and faith in a solution, a solution that allows me to accept what my illness is trying to do and counter it with positive action, positive action that brings a smile to my face.

Gratitude List 01/04/2019: The simple truth

Gratitude List 01/04/2019

Today I am grateful I accept my addiction for what it is – an illness. Just like some other illnesses, my addiction can never be cured. It will never go away. I have it for life. It will never ease in its potency, instead it will progressively get worse. Will-power alone will never overpower my illness (No matter how hard I try). My illness can and has lead others to insanity, prison and death.

But….

Today I am also grateful there is a solution. A solution that requires diligent effort, but a solution that works. A solution that is watertight. No matter how much my illness progresses, the solution will always be stronger – as long as I work it. How much do I want it? Am I worth it? Damn right I am. Thankfully, within the solution are powers greater than myself, powers stronger than my illness. Powers that can arrest the incurable on a day-to-day basis. Powers that I can rely on if I honestly and humbly seek them. Powers that enable me to live a happy and joyous life despite of my illness. A solution that has worked for thousands and thousands of others. My illness does not need to be cured – I do!