Gratitude List 03/04/2019: The Lie(s)

Gratitude List 03/04/2019

The Lie(s)

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I am better than everyone else.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants to tell me I am strong.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to believe I am safe.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I know all I need to know.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I am recovered.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness tells me I don’t need to be honest.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness tells me I have done enough, I have put in enough effort.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to negotiate.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to experiment.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to sit at home instead of going to a meeting, watch Netflix instead of doing my suggestions, go to bed without praying, hate instead of love, expect instead of appreciate, manage instead of let go, isolate instead of unite, change instead of accept, accept instead of change, resent instead of forgive, fear instead of live.

That is a very brief summary of the spiritual malady my illness brought me in the past and can still bring me if I take my foot off the pedal. I need to stay on my toes and keep putting in the diligent effort on a daily basis. If I don’t, the lies will lead to complacency and I know only to well where that will lead me.

With this awareness comes knowledge, knowledge of and faith in a solution, a solution that allows me to accept what my illness is trying to do and counter it with positive action, positive action that brings a smile to my face.