Gratitude List 17/05/2019: via a swipe right

Gratitude List 17/05/2019

Four years ago today, I met via a ‘swipe right’ and some very dodgy chat up lines, my girlfriend.

Today I am grateful that she is still with me. To begin with, I gave her lots and lots of reasons for her not to be.

Today I am grateful the timing was just about right. It was meant to be.

Today I am grateful she supported me in my journey back to the rooms. She took me to the doorstep that first evening.

Today I am grateful for the amazing role model she is to my children. Their loving relationship is a true blessing.

Today I am grateful for the role model she is to me. I have learnt so much from her maturity.

Today I am grateful for how supportive she is of the effort and time I need to put into my recovery.

Today I am grateful she understands that my recovery must come first.

Today I am grateful we have become best friends.

Today I am grateful for how our relationship has grown in strength and love.

Today I am grateful for Unity, Recovery and Service. Without them I can say with a degree of certainty that either (a) our relationship would’ve ended, or (b) I would be pulling this angel through the wringer with me.

Gratitude List 11/05/2019: People

Gratitude List 11/05/2019

People

Today I am grateful for people who go out their way to help others.

Today I am grateful for people who pull together and make things work.

Today I am grateful for people who inspire and motivate others.

Today I am grateful for people who share their experience, strength and hope.

Today I am grateful for people who show courage when being honest and vulnerable.

Today I am grateful for people who have a spiritual aura.

Today I am grateful for people who express love, kindness and forgiveness.

Today I am grateful for people who have a selfless attitude to life.

Today I am grateful for people who change.

Today I am grateful for people.

Gratitude List 05/05/2019: What an opportunity!

Gratitude List 05/05/2019

Another day has begun. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, the present is a gift. Once today has gone, it’s gone forever, I will never get it back. Today holds endless opportunities and I am grateful for each and every one of them.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to be positive and productive.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to enjoy life, be happy and smile.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to love and forgive.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to be tolerant, considerate and patient.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to unite with like minded fellows.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to strengthen relationships.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to draw a line and change direction.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to improve my conscious contact with God.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to work the steps in my daily life.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to be of service to others.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to progress.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to practice ‘just for today’.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to spiritually grow.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to look after my health.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to be the best fiancé, father, son, brother, friend, colleague and fellow I can possibly be.

These opportunities and many more are all there, waiting for me to take advantage of them. All I need to do is hand my will over and pick up the tools that have been laid out in front of me. If I don’t, one of these priceless opportunities will be wasted as I pick up something self-satisfying instead. If I do, I have little doubt that the most will be made of today, no matter what it brings.

Gratitude List 29/04/2019: Spirituality

Gratitude List 29/04/2019

Spirituality

I really struggled with the concept of spirituality. I wasn’t comfortable with it at all. For me it either resembled religion or flower power from the 60’s. I fully admit to my narrow-mindedness. To those who practiced it I reacted with resentment or humour.

Although I am now open and comfortable with going to mass or dancing round a beach fire, I have come to realise through recovery there are many ways I can add spirituality to my life.

Today I am grateful I can choose to be in touch with nature and the world – to feel part of mankind. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to unite and selflessly serve the fellowship. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to let go of expectation and instead practice gratitude. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to pray and practice qualities like surrender, humility and thankfulness. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to meditate and increase my ability to let go of my thoughts and give into mindfulness. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to continuously practice spiritual principles like honesty, acceptance, tolerance and patience. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to loosen the reigns, give up trying to control my life (and the lives of others) and believe in a power greater than I. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to be open-minded towards religion and the common message. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to show and share an abundance of love, kindness and forgiveness. Spirituality.

Today I am grateful I can choose to acknowledge the miracle of life within me and how life surrounds me wherever I go. Spirituality.

Gratitude List 28/04/2019

Gratitude List 28/04/2019

Today I am grateful for some more hope that’s come our way.

Today I am grateful for a great day with my children.

Today I am grateful I took the time to sit down with my son and help him find a job.

Today I am grateful I am willing to let my daughter take my phone (yes take my phone!) so she can listen to music.

Today I am grateful for a great phone call with a dear friend.

Today I am grateful for the latest beautiful surprises in our garden.

Today I am grateful for watching the house sparrows foraging for their nest. So industrious!

Today I am grateful I can speak aloud to my mum without feeling stupid or embarrassed.

Today I am grateful for my nephew running the London marathon. So proud of him.

Today I am grateful I chose to do this list instead of many other things my self wants me to do.

Gratitude List 24/04/2019: Resisting to feed my ego

Gratitude List 24/04/2019

Resisting to feed my ego can be a daily war – I say war because there can be several battles per day.

Today I am grateful I resisted sharing some information I knew would initiate gossip within my work place. I would have been centre of attention but at the expense of another.

Today I am grateful I didn’t feel the need to jump on the bandwagon and join in with some office banter, which again was at the expense of others.

Today I am grateful I didn’t point out the person walking down the street just so I could get a laugh.

Today I am grateful I didn’t interrupt anyone whilst they spoke just so I could express my own opinions.

Today I am grateful I didn’t try and take all the credit for what was a team effort. I was happy to see another take the limelight.

Today I am grateful I didn’t point out and loudly verbalise someone’s mistake.

Today I am grateful I didn’t hide something with a lie in order to protect my success and ego.

Today I am grateful I am aware that this type of behaviour is detrimental to my spiritual health.

Today I am grateful I accept that this is a working progress. I am no way near perfect. But I am aware and I will get lots of practice.

Gratitude List 18/04/2019 None are perfect but…..

Gratitude List 18/04/2019

None are perfect but…..

Today I am grateful for my sanity.

Today I am grateful for my serenity.

Today I am grateful for my mobility.

Today I am grateful grateful for my opportunities.

Today I am grateful for my choices.

Today I am for my acceptance.

Today I am grateful for my courage.

Today I am grateful for my freedom.

Today I am grateful for my abstinence.

Today I am grateful for my recovery.

Today I am grateful for my progression.

Today I am grateful for my health.

Today I am grateful for my energy.

Today I am grateful for my senses.

Today I am grateful for my spirituality.

Today I am grateful for my positivity.

Today I am grateful for my humility.

Today I am grateful for my faith.

Today I am grateful for my hope.

Today I am grateful for my life.

Gratitude List 03/04/2019: The Lie(s)

Gratitude List 03/04/2019

The Lie(s)

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I am better than everyone else.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants to tell me I am strong.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to believe I am safe.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I know all I need to know.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to think I am recovered.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness tells me I don’t need to be honest.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness tells me I have done enough, I have put in enough effort.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to negotiate.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to experiment.

Today I am grateful I am aware my illness wants me to sit at home instead of going to a meeting, watch Netflix instead of doing my suggestions, go to bed without praying, hate instead of love, expect instead of appreciate, manage instead of let go, isolate instead of unite, change instead of accept, accept instead of change, resent instead of forgive, fear instead of live.

That is a very brief summary of the spiritual malady my illness brought me in the past and can still bring me if I take my foot off the pedal. I need to stay on my toes and keep putting in the diligent effort on a daily basis. If I don’t, the lies will lead to complacency and I know only to well where that will lead me.

With this awareness comes knowledge, knowledge of and faith in a solution, a solution that allows me to accept what my illness is trying to do and counter it with positive action, positive action that brings a smile to my face.

Gratitude List 27/03/2019: Self-love

Gratitude List 27/03/2019

Self-love – regard for one’s own well-being and happiness

Good morning all. Presently, I am looking after myself – mentally, physically and spiritually and it feels good. I say presently, because I know through a lifetime’s worth of experience how easily it can change. The difference today is I have some tools which I believe can prolong and also enhance this feeling of self-love.

Today I am grateful I am currently eating better. I’ve come to realise how much and how badly I eat in between meals and how insane my thinking can be around it all. Today is just my 9th day abstinent from snacking but I feel so much better for it. I am also aware of trying to fill my body with decent, nutritious food (and drink) that is good for me.

Today I am grateful I am growing spiritually. Whether it be through prayer and meditation, reading inspirational literature or the practicing of spiritual principles like honesty, kindness and love. By doing so I am filling my mind with peace, happiness, gratitude and serenity as well as improving my conscious contact with God as I understand Him.

Today I am grateful I have the willingness to learn. I want to learn something new, like a new language. I fully admit I haven’t properly started yet and it’s all words no action but at least the desire is there. What I am doing on a daily basis is remaining teachable. Life is a daily education and today I am open to learn from both the ups and the downs.

Today I am grateful I have started to exercise a little more. I am conscious of the need to remain active, even if its getting off my chair and walking around a bit, walking up the escalators or doing a bit of gardening. I’ve gone back to the gym but I need to get back for the second time before I lose momentum – I know what I’m like!

Today I am grateful I have started to look after my health by getting myself to the doctor when I need to. In the past I would surpress my fears and simply hope the pain or discomfort would go away. Today I am more willing to get the professional help I need. Next up, the dentist!

Today I am grateful I choose to look becomingly. Well, I wouldn’t say I took too much care at 5:30 this morning but I and my clothes are at the very least washed and clean. I still need to take the time to sort out my crazy hair but it’s a far cry from the dishevelled look I used to grace the world with!

Today I am grateful I am filling the voids of my day with positive action. No longer am I wasting time doing s**t (sorry couldn’t think of a more appropriate word) that does nothing for my personal growth. I have a busy life so these moments are precious to me.

Today I am grateful that if I was to dissect myself right now I’d like to think my body is predominantly full of goodness. Goodness in terms of my mentality, my physicality and my spirituality.

Gratitude List 14/03/2019: The world WAS my ego’s oyster.

Gratitude List 14/03/2019

Filling the void is easier said than done. But every time I successfully fill it with something positive, especially when temptation wants to take me in the opposite direction, I am very grateful. I’m grateful because I feel great afterwards instead of feeling crap. I know I’ve reflected on this before, but yesterday it happened again.

After work I had a little under 2 hours to myself before my girlfriend came home. Out of nowhere, my mind began to fill with all the things I could do and none were positive – eat junk food, watch trash TV, watch pornography, flick through social media – the world was my ego’s oyster.

Today I am grateful I did something I could have easily procrastinated until the following day. It needed to be done and now it doesn’t.

Today I am grateful I walked home from the station instead of getting on the bus. This gave me time to reflect on my day, clear my mind and appreciate my surroundings.

Today I am grateful I called and connected with fellows. The timing of a call back inspired me to walk past the chippy. No such thing as coincidence!

Today I am grateful I I put the washing away. A job I dislike a lot. But I did it with no expectation of a thank you. It did go unnoticed and I’m happy about that.

Today I am grateful I sat in the garden and meditated. It felt great to switch off and improve my conscious contact with my greater power.

Today I am grateful I prepared dinner for when my girlfriend got home. Cooking is something I love. I’m no chef but enjoy it, especially cooking for others.

Today I am grateful that before I knew it the void had passed. The success of filling this void will add to the strength I need for next time.

Today I am grateful my girlfriend came home to a spiritually well boyfriend and not one, who because of his misdemeanours, would have been feeling low and very touchy if he was questioned about it.