Gratitude List 14/02/2019: Loving life

Gratitude List 14/02/2019

Today I am grateful for another stunning sunrise. Absolutely beautiful and a strong reminder of where I am.

Today I am grateful for my girlfriend. An amazing person sent from my higher power. Many others wouldn’t have been up for the job!! I’m truly blessed to have her.

Today I am grateful she is also the perfect step mum. While I was working until late la’s night, she was looking after my kids, teaching and having fun.

Today I am grateful I am becoming a better partner. I must’ve been such hard work in the past. I admire her resilience.

Today I am grateful I feel more spiritually equipped for a relationship.

Today I am grateful for my daughter’s face this morning. She has the most vibrant smile and cheeky laugh!

Today I am grateful she thinks it’s funny when I call out in front of her school friends to say ‘I love you!!’ She’ll be an embarrassed teenager soon so getting it out while I still can.

Today I am grateful for my teenage son who has shown amazing maturity lately. I honestly admit I have learnt a lot from him recently.

Today I am grateful for the kindness and generosity of a very good friend.

Today I am I’ve experienced the dark days. It makes me appreciate my happiness even more. Maybe I wouldn’t have found gratitude. What a beautiful day it is today. Much love.

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Gratitude List 13/02/2019: My day has started

Gratitude List 13/02/2019

Today I am grateful to get up at the crack of dawn. To make the most of today. Once this day has gone it’ll be gone forever.

Today I am grateful I have started my day well. I am in the process of beginning my day as suggested. I intend for my day to continue in the same way.

Today I am grateful to hear the early bird songs, see the dawning sky and feel the cold crisp air.

Today I am grateful I left my home with a smile on my face and an abundance of love.

Today I am grateful I am on my way to meet a good friend, to unite and to pass on the same message that saved my own.

Today I am grateful for the job I will go to afterwards. For the income that provides me with shelter, food and security.

Today I am grateful for the prepared lunch I have in my bag. Its healthy, plentiful and cheap.

Today I am grateful for the half hour break I will have by myself. Probably the only opportunity I’ll have. I intend to fill it with something that’s good for me.

Today I am grateful I am then collecting my children. I don’t get to see them as often as I’d like but I am truly blessed to see them at all.

Today I am grateful I am looking forward to finding out about my children’s day, helping them with their work, sitting at the dinner table together, and reading to my daughter at bed time.

Today I am grateful for the tools I have gained which will enable me to deal with my day, especially when it doesn’t go to plan. Through my spiritual connection I feel powerful today.

Today I am grateful to be alive.

Gratitude List 11/02/2019: Fear Less

Gratitude List 11/02/2019

I feel a case of deja-vu! I’m sure I’ve written about this before (even the title) but it’s something I’m very grateful for.

I really feel like I’m living a new life. A second chance. Two lifetimes in one. To most, my life on the outside would seem very much the same. How it feels on the inside though is completely different. One of the biggest differences is the fear. It’s not like fear doesn’t exist in my life now, but in comparison I feel as free as a bird!

Today I am grateful I’m in less fear when a company do a credit check on me.

Today I am grateful I’m not in fear when my bill due dates are up and coming.

Today I am grateful I fear much less speaking in public.

Today I am grateful I do not fear getting through the day. Today I am grateful I do not fear a relapse.

Today I am grateful I’m in less fear when my phone rings. I don’t have to have it on silent and face down anymore.

Today I am grateful I’m not in fear when I see post on our doorstep.

Today I am grateful I no longer fear being inadequate.

Today I am grateful I fear less being honest and open. A tough one as this fear was so ingrained. Definitely getting better though.

Today I am grateful I’m in less fear when it comes to letting someone down. I never intend to do so, but it is inevitable.

Today I am grateful I’m aware I still fear being late. The consequences are NEVER that bad. One I need to hand over again.

Today I am grateful I do not fear being caught.

Today I am very grateful I am not in fear about my future.

Gratitude List 04/02/2019: Continued…

Gratitude List 04/02/2019

Further to yesterday.

I woke this morning feeling a little drained, emotionally drained. Yesterday, I was met with my biggest test yet since being in recovery. Despite the challenge, as time has passed, I have been able to see plenty of positives. That has continued to be the case today and, upon reflection, I am full of gratitude.

Today I am grateful that this challenge has not led to me acting out in a negative way. Who knows what this could’ve led to. Working the program means I was less vulnerable.

Today I am grateful that my humility and consideration overpowered any resentments that briefly came to mind.

Today I am grateful I have been in recovery for the last year. Had I not been, I seriously believe I would be in a very, very dark place today.

Today I am grateful that my reaction has been to carry on as normal – which has been to work the program in my daily life. Being in recovery means that no desperate or drastic changes to my behaviour were necessary.

Today I am grateful I intuitively knew how to deal with this test (that would’ve previously baffled me). On reflection, the tools I have gained through this program were working without any conscience thought of my own. It was a miracle.

Today I am grateful my ego and self-will was not in control. Instead, my greater power carried me through. Under pressure, it would’ve definitely been the other way round. Does this mean my natural behaviour/reactions have changed?

Today I am grateful that this has reinforced my faith in this program and that ‘it works if I work it.’

Today I am grateful for that ‘moment of silence to remind myself why I am here’. I’m here because I need to be!

Today I am grateful I am not alone. Thanks to the honesty I have practiced, I have been able to share this situation with my partner, my fellows and my sponsor. Such a blessing to have this support instead of suffering alone.

Today I am mostly grateful that two people, who I severely harmed in the past, have had some release. They have been suffering and this would have been a big lift for both of them. I pray that my future conduct will assist in further amends.

Gratitude List 28/01/2019: Family time

Gratitude List 28/01/2019

Yesterday we went out as a family to celebrate two birthdays. Today, my gratitude is based on the simple fact I can enjoy these special occasions.

Today I am grateful I was able to afford a couple of cards and a small gift each rather than turning up empty handed. Again.

Today I am grateful I showed responsibility and didn’t spend more than I could. I stayed within my means rather than feeling guilty and trying to make amends for previous years.

Today I am grateful I didn’t have to manipulate another to help out me out financially so I could pay my share of the food bill.

Today I am grateful I was present and taking in the friendship, love and atmosphere rather than thinking and wishing I was somewhere else.

Today I am grateful for my senses. I was able to see the happiness, hear the laughter, taste and smell the lovely food, and feel the love.

Today I am grateful I was truly happy, enjoying the moment and not having to hide my true emotions with a fake smile.

Today I am grateful I realise how lucky I am to have a family. Its a true blessing. I love them all so much. I am grateful that my illness didn’t ruin any of our relationships. Those that found out have been nothing but supportive and understanding.

Gratitude List 25/01/2019: What do I get?

Gratitude List 25/01/2019

What do I get when I look at this picture?

First and foremost I see an abundance of beauty. I see an array of stunning colours and patterns. Today I am grateful for the blessing of sight.

I see a much greater power than myself. The sun’s energy is clearly evident through it’s heat and light. Powers that I believe I can draw on. Today I am grateful for this connection.

I see that although the colours represent heat, it is bitterly cold outside. Today I am grateful for the warm home this picture was taken from.

I see a miracle that the sun is exactly the right distance away to support life here on Earth. Today I am grateful for this awareness.

I see a reminder that I am but one of billions standing on a planet, amongst thousands of others planets. Today I am grateful for this humility.

I see a city full of opportunities and a freedom to pursue them. In comparison to some, a very safe one too. Today I am grateful I don’t take this for granted.

I see a new dawning, which means I woke up. Today I am grateful to be alive.