Gratitude List 18/06/2019: The ones with feathers!

Gratitude List 18/06/2019

As you’re probably aware by now, I have a keen interest in birds (the ones with feathers!) It’s an interest that was passed down from my father. I’m not embarrassed to say that watching them go about their day gives me so much joy. I’ve always thought to myself I need to learn something new. And I do, but I realised (only this morning) that this is an interest I have learnt about and have continued to learn about over the years, especially since being in recovery.

Today I am grateful to see the three types of Tits (resist Dean resist). The differences between a Coal Tit, a Blue Tit and a Great Tit are at first subtle, but once learnt they are clear and consistent.

Today I am grateful to lean back and take in the spitfire-like-flight of the swifts above. So elegant and…. well ‘swift’. Rarely seen out of the air, in fact they often sleep in flight. Confused with the Swallow but has less of a ‘V’ in its tail.

Today I am grateful to hear the calls of both the Collared Dove and the Wood Pigeon. I enjoy recognising the difference between the Collared Doves smooth three piece call and the rougher edged five piece of the Wood Pigeon.

Today I am grateful to have witnessed how a male Wood Pigeon attracts a mating partner. In true Planet Earth fashion, the male stepped and hopped along the fence over to his target, before performing an elaborate bow and chest-puff combo. One male failed. Another tried and clearly scored better.

Today I am grateful for the forever migrating Starlings. Often seen as a nuisance but they are spectacular looking birds. What other birds literally glitter? I have seen a few juveniles recently, at first I thought they were females, they are browner in colour but again, very beautiful.

Today I am grateful for the industrious House Sparrows. This time of year they are always busy feeding their young and perfecting their nests. If I’m lucky I get to see a group of them perform a fluttering dance in and out of the vegetation of the garden.

Today I am grateful for the Carrion Crow. If these birds weren’t so commonly seen, maybe we would appreciate how beautiful they really are. Large in size, gloriously jet black and apparently one of the most intelligent birds out there.

Today I am grateful for the vibrantly coloured Goldfinch. This petit member of the Finch family is a combination of brown, white, black, red and gold. If one arrives so will many others. His chirp is distinctive and therefore easily distinguishable between other garden birds.

Today I am grateful for the beautiful red breasted Robin. He has an absolutely poetic chorus (I can hear one right now). Incredibly tame birds which will eat from your hand if trained. The king of the English garden in my books.

Today I am grateful I get to see all of this in my garden. All I need to do is take the time to take it in and read a bit. If I want to broaden my viewing all I need to do is step out into a nearby park, woodland or common and take my book.

Today I am grateful I have loved passing on this knowledge to my children. As I have, I hope they remember some of it.

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Gratitude List 17/06/2019

Gratitude List 17/06/2019

Today I am grateful for my morning prayers. My first and vital practice of the day. One practice leads to another.

Today I am grateful to have prepared my lunch for the day. I need to stop buying take-out food and this helps hugely.

Today I am grateful for a hard truth from my partner. She did it with love and care in mind and today that’s how I received it.

Today I am grateful for my free coffee and croissant. Thank you Vodafone.

Today I am grateful I had the will (through my greater power) to hand the croissant to another.

Today I am grateful for the £1 in my pocket. Cards etc have been left at home so I don’t spend money unnecessarily.

Today I am grateful I gave this £1 to the man collecting money for the Children’s Hope Charity. It would have paid for a bag of crisps.

Today I am grateful to have spoken to my daughter this morning. I selfishly snapped at her this weekend, I wanted her to know how much I love her.

Today I am grateful to be sitting here doing this list and the serenity I am experiencing.

Today I am grateful for my abstinence and my current levels of sanity, motivation and happiness.

Gratitude List 16/06/2019: Father’s Day

Gratitude List 16/06/2019

Today being today, it is quite apt to speak about how recovery has improved the relationship between my dad and I. For over two decades I resented my dad. I had dealt with that resentment by simply surpressing my feelings and emotions. The resentment never lessened, it just festered inside. Our contact was limited and for the majority, I only ever instigated contact so I could manipulate the situation and use it to my financial advantage.

Today I am grateful I admitted my life had been unmanageable including how I managed this resentment.

Today I am grateful I found some humility through gaining a belief in a power greater than myself. With this humility I was able to look at my past mistakes.

Today I am grateful that although I wasn’t directly involved in the cause, I learnt that I could’ve done better when it comes to dealing with the resentment since it was caused.

Today I am grateful I realised that when it comes to justified resentments I can still forgive. Forgiveness works.

Today I am grateful I have a greater power to which I can hand over any defects of character that stand in the way of my usefulness to my dad. This includes but is not exhausted to dishonesty, anger, hate, arrogance, intolerance, inconsideration….

Today I am grateful I can think of my dad and walk a mile in his shoes. I realised the harm I had caused him since. By doing this, it helped me become willing to make amends to him.

Today I am grateful I am able to make amends. I can let him release his feelings and emotions. I can sincerely ask for his forgiveness and genuinely ask how I can make things better.

Today I am grateful I had prayer and meditation to utilise before I met with my dad in the early days of recovery. Handing my life and will over just before meeting him really helped.

Today I am grateful I can carry the message to my dad. By being the best version of myself he may witness the power of recovery through the law of attraction.

Today I am grateful our relationship has blossomed beyond belief. It is completely different to what it was a few years ago. Contact is regular and time spent together is full of happiness and laughter. I have come to cherish each moment. Not a bad word, nor a bad thought. I have been able to truly forgive and love him – not forgetting to tell him as often as I can. In fact I remember telling him I loved him for the first time in ages. I truly meant it and still do.

Gratitude List 15/06/2019

Gratitude List 15/06/2019

Another weekend and another opportunity to sit in the garden and enjoy what is beautiful. So what is beautiful today?

Today I am grateful for some fresh blooms. It really is a garden full of surprises. It’s lucky I procrastinated the gardening, otherwise I would’ve no doubt pulled these out thinking they’re weeds.

Today I am grateful for another species of bird to come to the feeders. This morning was the first time I saw Starlings, both male and female. Gorgeous colours.

Today I am grateful for the busy bees who are constantly in and out the flowers, pollenating and doing their bit for life. Absolutely gorgeous creatures.

Today I am grateful for the zebra patterned snail currently residing in the apple tree. Amazing colours. How he got head height is a wonder.

Today I am grateful for the family of squirrels. A while ago, we could see the female was pregnant. Now we have two rascals running around. Costing me a fortune in peanuts, but I love it.

Today I am grateful for the sparrows who have made home in the neighbours brick work. If we’re lucky we get to see them bring food to awaiting chicks gaping mouth.

Today I am grateful we got see a male woodpigeon attract a female. It was like our very own Planet Earth, watching him walk, jump, walk, jump and then proceed to complete a bow and puff the chest combo.

Today I am grateful for the clouds amongst the blue skies. They themselves are an absolute sensation to watch – so peaceful. The glimpses of sun just radiate the colours before me.

Today I am grateful for this garden. So many don’t have a home, let alone a garden. I’m also grateful for all the greenspace available to me, which have served me well when I wasn’t blessed with my own space.

Today I am grateful for my eyes, ears and nose. With these I am able to fully appreciate this beauty if I take the time to do it.

Gratitude List 14/06/2019: Law of attraction – thank you!!

Gratitude List 14/06/2019

Law of attraction – thank you!!

Yet again, I found myself in a place full of wonderful like minded people last night – like a flock of geese flying in the same direction ;). There were so many strengths of character on display, I cannot begin to explain how much inspiration I get. Through the law of attraction, these strengths filter into me. All I have to do is take my seat, open my mind, listen and soak it up like a sponge.

Today I am grateful to witness honesty.

Today I am grateful to witness vulnerability.

Today I am grateful to witness acceptance.

Today I am grateful to witness courage.

Today I am grateful to witness wisdom.

Today I am grateful to witness humility.

Today I am grateful to witness spirituality.

Today I am grateful to witness faith.

Today I am grateful to witness hopefulness.

Today I am grateful to witness selflessness.

Today I am grateful to witness love and kindness.

Today I am grateful to witness unity.

How can I not get inspired after being around all of that? Love it!

👍🏻😊💪🏻🙏🏻❤

Gratitude List 13/06/2019: Resentments

Gratitude List 13/06/2019

Sometimes resentments arise. It’s life. How I react to them will have huge effect on the serenity and happiness of firstly myself and secondly those around me. Thankfully, through the steps, I have been given some valuable lessons in life.

Today I am grateful I am learning about feelings and emotions.

Today I am grateful I am learning about maturity.

Today I am grateful I am learning how to look at the part I played.

Today I am grateful I am learning how to use tolerance and consideration.

Today I am grateful I am learning how to forgive and love.

Today I am grateful I am learning how to ask for forgiveness.

Today I am grateful I am learning how to remain humble.

Today I am grateful I am learning how to accept people, places and things.

Today I am grateful I am learning how to take action and change the things I can.

Today I am grateful I am still learning.

💪🏻🙏🏻❤😊👍🏻

Gratitude List 12/06/2019

Gratitude List 12/06/2019

Today I am grateful for my abstinence. Without it, recovery and life as I know would not be possible.

Today I am grateful for my senses. I am currently able to see, hear, smell, taste, touch and connect.

Today I am grateful to have home to return to this evening. I have a shower to get under and a bed to get into.

Today I am grateful for how a friends fortunes have changed. He’s gone from living in his car to piloting an airplane.

Today I am grateful that when the forecasted rain arrives this afternoon I have shelter to go to and a coat to wear.

Today I am grateful for the breakfast I am about to eat. A breakfast that is both tasty and nutritious for my body.

Today I am grateful to be doing this list which in turn is feeding my spirit and mind. I cannot ignore my spiritual health.

Today I am grateful for the thousands of people who share their experience, strength, hope, knowledge and philosophy.

Today I am grateful I really do have water on tap. So many millions do not have this simple and often forgotten blessing.

Today I am grateful for my beating heart, my functioning brain, my breathing lungs. I am blessed with the miracle of life.