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I wrote my first gratitude list in February 2017 at the age of 39. Since then I have tried to find gratitude in whoever, wherever, whenever and whatever. For too long had I taken the simple things for granted. Almost a year later I now find myself appreciating a wide variety of things such as clean water and my freely given miracle of sight. This way of thinking has assisted in the transformation of the way I currently perceive and live my life. I have set up this blog with the intention of sharing gratitude on a daily basis. Today I have gratitude for gratitude. May you find gratitude too.

 

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The Same Strength

Gratitude List 11/12/2018

My list today reflects on the strength I get through my greater power. I initially sought this power to overcome my addiction. Little did I know how much strength I would get in return.

Today I am grateful for the strength that keeps me off a bet.

The same strength that allows me to accept the things I cannot change.

The same strength that gives me the courage to change the things I can.

The same strength that pushes me through that gym door.

The same strength which assists me in dealing with whatever life throws at me.

The same strength that enables me to hand over my defects that stand in the way.

The same strength that helps me do the next right thing, especially when I don’t want to.

The same strength that supports me when I am physically, mentally or spiritually struggling.

The same strength that remains with me even when I do my best to take control and disconnect.

The same strength that helped me face my past.

The same strength that allows me to forgive instead of resent, to love instead of hate.

The same strength that gave me the fearlessness to face my past.

The same strength that gives me hope.

Feeling good

Gratitude List 10/12/2018

How am I feeling? Pretty damn good in comparison to how I used to! When I think about it, I feel like a completely different person. How I felt in the past was both painful and harmful, no wonder surpression was an easy way out. I was mentally exhausted.

Today I am grateful my sanity has been restored. How I used to feel and think was on occasion like that of a mad man.

I am grateful for the level of serenity I experience on a daily basis. Even when I think my serenity has dipped, it’s nothing to how bad I know it can be.

I’m grateful for how little I think these days. No more conjuring of stories or coming up with dishonest or manipulative plans. No more washing machine on full spin.

I’m also grateful for how I feel about myself. No longer am I completely disappointed in myself. No longer do despise who I am. Today I like who I am and what I’m trying to do.

Today I am grateful my feelings are not dictated by fear and resentment. The program has taught me how best to deal with them and if connected how to avoid them altogether.

I am grateful for how others make me feel. From a place of limited knowledge, I now have a better understanding of tolerance, patience, consideration, forgiveness and love. As a result, today my feelings are less effected.

Today I am grateful I don’t suffer from the pressures of being in charge. I don’t want to feel the stress and I’m crap at it anyway. My greater power can gladly take over.

Lastly I am grateful I feel (through my greater power and recovery) strong, confident and powerful.

A Healthier Mind

Gratitude List 09/11/2018

Suppression was always my answer to dealing with life’s problems. I thought by doing so I would keep my happiness by not letting things bother me. I became very good at it too, I could surpress all types of emotions like grief, fear and hate. The problem was, no matter how far I pushed them to the back of my head, they regularly came to the front with a bang and were normally expressed through defects like self-pity, dishonesty and anger.

Today I am grateful I now choose to deal with things rather than let them fester in my mind.

Today I am grateful for the tools, wisdom and experience that allow me to do so.

Today I am grateful that all that was surpressed is slowly but surely being unlocked and released.

Today I am grateful for the lessons I have learnt and continue to learn by facing up to life’s challenges.

Today I am grateful for a mind that thinks less. Not because I don’t want to, but because there’s not much to think about.

Today I am grateful for the willing people in my life who are there to listen when something crops up.

Today I am grateful for a healthier mind.

Purpose and Goals

Gratitude List 08/12/2018

I love having a purpose in life. Until recently I honestly don’t think I had one, I was just surviving. And with that purpose have come my goals in life. Again, something I never really had, my goals were little more than a blind and desperate hope that things will turn out ok.

My purpose and my goals have been born out of the 12 step recovery program. Therefore, it’s no surprise that my purpose in life is to pass on this miraculous, life changing program to as many people as possible. I honestly believe that every single person could benefit from doing this program, unfortunately not everyone will have the opportunity.

My goals in life are not to be rich, or even successful. But to do good and be the best person I can possibly be for the people around me – the best dad, the best son, the best partner, the best friend, the best passer-by. To love and forgive as much as I can, to appreciate as much as I can and be as happy as I can.

Just for Today

Gratitude List 07/12/2018

JUST FOR TODAY

Just for today I am living through this day only and not tackling my whole life problem at once. I am doing something for 12 hours that would have appalled me if I felt that I had to keep it up for a lifetime.

Just for today I am happy. This assumes to be true what Abraham Lincoln said, that: “most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be.”

Just for today I have adjusted myself to what is and not tried to adjust everything to my own desires. I too am taking this day as it comes and fitting myself to it.

Just for today I have tried to strengthen my mind. I have studied. I have learnt something useful. I have not been a mental loafer. I have read something that requires effort, thought and concentration.

Just for today I have exercised my soul in three ways: I have done somebody a good turn, and didn’t get found out; if anybody knows of it, it will not count; I did at least two things I didn’t want to do – just for exercise; I did not show anyone that my feelings are hurt – they may have been hurt but today I did not show it.

Just for today I have been agreeable. I have looked as well as I could, dressed becomingly, talked low, acted courteously, criticised not one bit, not found fault with anything, and not tried to improve or regulate anybody but myself.

Just for today I had a programme. I may not have followed it exactly but I had it. I saved myself from two pests – hurry and indecision.

Just for today I still need to have a quiet half-hour all by myself and relax. During this half-hour, sometime, I tried to get a better perspective of my life.

Just for today I was unafraid. Especially I was not be afraid to enjoy what was beautiful and to believe that, as I gave to the world, so the world will gave to me.

Just for today I haven’t gambled.

Tell me more!

Gratitude List 06/12/2018

I was told to do something yesterday. Not asked, I was told. In the past this would have made my blood boil. I won’t deny that a resentment arose, but it was miniscule in comparison and over within seconds. Today I can reflect on the moment with gratitude.

I am grateful that my serenity wasn’t effected much at all and that I know better how to deal with resentments.

I am grateful I listened to my greater power’s conscience telling me to just do it.

I am grateful that my greater power’s conscience told me it was the right thing to do. The responsible thing to do.

I am grateful that the moment was both positive and productive. I felt great afterwards.

I am grateful I wasn’t asked, because that would have given me a choice. Would I have made the right choice? I can’t be certain.

I am grateful I don’t see this as a weakness.

I am grateful to have learnt in recovery how to let go and do something without question, alteration or judgement.

I am grateful for my greater power’s wisdom which guided me (on this occasion) towards acceptance.

Gratitude on the go

Gratitude List 05/12/2018

Sometimes things happen during my day which straight away make me grateful for what I have. Depending on what happens, what I witness, my gratitude can lean to certain things.

Right now I am grateful for my upbringing.

Right now I am grateful for the area and country I was brought up in.

Right now I am grateful for my education.

Right now I am grateful for the opportunities I had.

Right now I am grateful for the circumstances I find myself in.

Right now I am grateful for my freedom. I have very few restrictions.

Right now I am grateful for my chance in life.

Things could have been completely different.